If you came in from an outside link, scroll down past the link table (so sorry!) to read that specific post. Also, scroll down when you click on blog links in here – many of these top links are elsewhere with no introduction.

This isn’t your typical ‘anti-twilight’ blog… This is yet another email (complete with semi-subtle death threat) from someone asking questions about it that some of you may be asking, yourself. Don’t assume that you know what this blog is about simply because you’ve argued on Stephenie Meyer’s behalf before.

This is the very first post on this blog, from my ‘clueless movie fan’ perspective. It was written on Thanksgiving Day, 2011 – then published in here a few days later, after I could reread it and do some editing. It is hysterically funny and incredibly poignant at the same time – for those of you who can’t see Stephenie Meyer’s amateur sexual fantasy floating around in The Twilight Saga. This post is what those of us who ARE familiar with vampires experienced because of Breaking Dawn’s unbelievable ending; and it may help explain for you why this blog exists. It is where absolutely everything started; and demonstrates my intentions for this blog from the beginning. Believe it or not, they were NOT MEAN.

At first, I didn’t know why things were wrong; I only knew that they were – so I was making excuses for Stephenie Meyer in the beginning, LoL! Really… every single estranged TwiFan that she has, USED to be at least a real semi-fan of hers.

Please be patient. I know that most people who are familiar with this controversy have passionate opinions; but what about the rest of you who are completely clueless? I wrote this so that readers would not have to jump off the page, as much. I recommend reading through once; then going back to read links for more details, later. If you get too angry to keep reading, pause and scroll down to the side link collection. I used to be a clueless person in the world, and then a clueless Twilight Movie Fan for a while, too. You’ll see more about me, below. And please forgive the caps, in places. I don’t see them as shouting as some peeps do. They are simply meant to make those words stand out, and that is all…

This blog is all about the accidental and painful over-obsessions of The Twilight Fanbases
that has CONTINUED with a decade of
worldwide bullying and intentional,
emotionally-harsh attacks
on the hearts & minds of little TwiFangirls (and big ones).

The feelings of obsessed fans are real even if
their obsessions are not - until they drift away.
You all KNOW THIS.

Suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death for 15 - 24 year olds in the US.

These are all REAL issues, to name a few - for MILLIONS of people:
Maladaptive Daydreaming


Dissociative Disorder
This one is the worst biggie, and starting
to be considered an EPIDEMIC

Why are the obsessions of young girls important?

Because their feelings are real even if the obsessions are not – until they drift away. Young girls NEED their fairytale ‘escapes’ MUCH MORE than older ones do because they have limited ways to cope with life’s crap (read the comments beneath these neverending, misogynistic tabloid assaults – this one is from January 2016). If you’ve never been forced to endure public high school in the US (or anywhere, probably); or been abused as a child (unfortunately, still a common occurrence) - then of course you can’t possibly relate.

How Did this Blog Change to
Tabloid & Paparazzi Reform

- Yeah, I have some really good reasons beyond
Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson and their Fans
(Although I’m pretty sure they are enough reason at this point.)

Why Do People Hate Bella Swan and Kristen Stewart?
Believe it or not, this is a very easy question to answer;
and NO it isn’t because she ‘cheated’.

TwiNewsflash: The concerning over-obsessions of young women was the ONLY REASON that Breaking Dawn was forgiven when it was published in 2008. The ONLY people who have defended this story for being written ‘just like it is’ because ‘Stephenie Meyer is a literary genius’ are her YOUNG (and young-at-heart) fans who were used by both the amateur author and her publisher because ‘they weren’t supposed to know any better’ about vampires.

And, these are the fans who get hit & hurt the most by world bullying. It is really crappy of SM and you older ladies to continue letting them believe what they believe about these books - while they ignorantly & arrogantly (in their over-obsessions) deal with all the hate surrounding Twilight that still exists in big, dynamic ways.

Email Excerpt: “Thank you for writing that wonderful blog.. it was heaven sent.. Please someone tell him (this is ‘why the cheating scandal started’, Aug 2012). He just texted me and said he told my mom.. and for me to get some help.. and bye.. please tell him… Everyone is doing this and it’s killing me.. but everyone acts like they don’t know what I’m talking about.. I don’t think I’ve ever needed anything so bad in all my life than for someone to tell him.. I know they are trying to drive me crazy.. and it’s starting to work.. thanks again, was truly a blessing I needed to read very much so.”

Another email excerpt that I hear all the time from all types of fans:
I have tried speaking to my good friend about my obsession and, as with all of my friends,
doesn't like Twilight and totally judged me lol so your feedback means a lot.”

How to Soothe an Intense Twilight / Robsessed / Krisbian / Robsten Obsession

Anti-Twilight Fans could SEE what Stephenie Meyer didn’t MEAN to write;
and Erika didn’t MEAN to write her books ignorantly, either.
Adult women have 50 Shades of obsessive fog to get past before
they can possibly begin to think clearly about this subject.

Why does The Twilight Saga have so many anti-fans? Why are there hardly any male fans? How did Twilight’s infamous obsessions become over-obsessions? Why are so many older women more obsessed than younger ones? Why did the fandom fracture into several various fanbases that fight among themselves? How did we get 50 Shades of Grey out of all this commotion?

I recorded four wildly-ranting videos (this one is my favorite – calling SM out, ha!) over three years ago at the height of my own very unwanted Twilight over-obsession (It’s not like you can unwatch or unread something – or reclaim wasted time). At that point, I was really mad about ‘how I was obsessed’ with this pretty fairytale; and I was mad that Stephenie Meyer had ‘accidentally’ done this to so many other people before me - and didn’t correct any of the dysfunction in her books before she made them into movies.

I actually say this in the second video before I had even heard of 50 Shades of Grey... “It sounds to me like Stephenie has some sort of BDSM fetish, but I don’t even sort of want to think about that right now.” (Video #12 is where you will hear me say this.)

And yet, somehow 50 Shades of Grey (this post is what exactly is wrong with fifty shades) exists as Twilight Fanfiction; and is yet another dysfunctional worldwide ‘phenomenon’?! Do you have any idea how disturbing that is? Not only does it make my skin crawl – it’s just wrong.

There are real amateur literary reasons why Twilight messed with so many people’s heads – especially OLDER women; and we are the ones who get called ‘crazy’ for it - unless we manage to write another dysfunctional (XXX!) blockbuster based on all this negligence…

Did you know that Steph’s publisher didn’t want to publish Breaking Dawn? Did you know that New Moon & Eclipse were not supposed to be in between the 1st & last books? Do you ‘get’ that she didn’t mean to cause so many of her OLDER fans to see Edward Cullen the way they came to see him as Christian Grey? Do you understand that these are the reasons why the world has always &STILL bullies Twilight Fans, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson because of her amateur writing mistakes?

Sick-in-the-head older women had absolutely no right to hijack the pretty fairytale of young girls via Fifty Shades of Grey; and they should care when their daughters are being bullied by the world over it, incessantly.

What’s Wrong with Twilight: Chapter One, First Sight?

The Condensed Version:
The Four Main Complaints of this Blog
against Stephenie Meyer and her ‘professional’ Publishers &
Production Franchise for RARE & irresponsible,
professionally-negligent publishing and movie production.

When the first Twilight movie was being made in 2008; the last book, Breaking Dawn had not been released, yet. Because of this, no one knew at that time that Stephenie Meyer was going to bomb her pretty fairytale into the ground until it was published a few months before the release of the first film.

Extreme chaos & debate surrounded Steph and The Twilight Saga at that time for the exact same reasons that surrounds 50 Shades of Grey - but somehow, she got through it (see side links)...

If 'Midnight Sun' had not been 'accidentally' leaked just prior to the first movie being rushed; AND Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson had not BOTH nailed their parts in that first movie - Twilight would have been history.

Stephenie Meyer could have written any 'ol ending for her infamously overly-obsessed fans (and really, that seems like what she did); and they would have lapped it up like honey (and they did – especially the ones who didn’t know any better, couldn’t see what was wrong – or didn’t care, because of fifty Shades of BEDWARD!!

The entire world has done nothing but treat Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson AND their emotionally-invested fans like sh*t, since - and the infighting among Twilight's divided and HATEFUL fanbases is ongoing.

Despite all this, 'feminists' have embraced the latest and greatest dysfunctional character, Christian Grey/Edward Cullen/Prince Charming...

Popular Email Question: Why does Stephenie Meyer need to apologize? Because the world can’t heal from the wounds she has inflicted on it if she doesn’t acknowledge her amateur mistakes and apologize for them. All she has done from the beginning of her controversies is metaphorically flip off her critics. While normally that is exactly what you are supposed to do… In this case, with all the professional exceptions that were made while The Twilight Saga was being published; the amateur author (AND the publisher AND production franchise) really needed to be listening to fans. It is NOT NORMAL for roughly half of your fanbase (much less, the world!) to become so angry with you regarding a casual creative expression.

I am just using this true stuff about SM’s amateur writing to grab your attention – and boy does it grab some of you, ha! Now if we could just get past that part of things… I really could care less about Stephenie Meyer’s or EL James’ many ignorant and irresponsible amateur literary mistakes that caused all this chaos. Believe it or not, I have stuck up for Stephenie Meyer so many times over this issue, it’s ridiculous.

Creative ‘Freedom of Speech’ is DIFFERENT than the illegal type of ‘Freedom of Speech’ that tabloids & paparazzi hide behind.

Freedom of Speech and Freedom of the Press were meant to create transparency in order to protect the truth about absolutely everything - not provide a way for mean, greedy tabloid liars to make money off of young (and young-at-heart) fans who are practically defenseless against emotional tabloid & paparazzi assaults (not to mention how even more defenseless Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson are against them)…

This blog now has but one mission: Tabloid & Paparazzi Reform for all celebrities past & present (Princess Diana, anyone?) and it has been that since July 25, 2012 – the day after the infamous cheating scandal. Oh yeah, I’ve been on their stinky tails from the beginning. It hasn’t even been SORT of fun! I really hope we can all manage to put aside our differences and unite to stick it to them, someday. Tabloids & papz so deserve it!!

I don’t care how long it takes. Aside from having really good reasons other than Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson to be concerned for celebrity rights; we fans – no matter which side of the ring we fight on – are getting awfully tired of being manipulated and watching our favorite celebrities being harassed. So many of you do not ‘get’ this; but Robert Pattinson is being attacked and/or used as much as Kristen Stewart in these kinds of stories – no matter ‘how nice’ they seem to be slanted toward him, at times. It is just another way to pour salt on the wounds of their fans by being misogynistic toward both them and Kristen at the same time – using Robert and her anti-fans against their will!!

This is because the world has no respect for Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson or Twilight fans – any version of them; BECAUSE of Stephenie Meyer’s offensive & insulting amateur writing (another reason why she needs to apologize). To the rest of the world, we’re all simply hysterical to bully; just another section of the populace to be targeted and made fun of for profits – via outright assaults and numerous lie upon lie that continues

Boycott all online and print tabloids until they volunteer to reform.



Why Do So Many People Hate Kristen Stewart and/or Bella Swan?
or Why/How did so many of Stephenie Meyer’s OLDER fans become so
‘accidentally’ overly-obsessed with the character of Edward Cullen?
Shortest and most anti-fan & fan-variation-inclusive version that I have written, yet!!
Read it only if you dare… and only if you can be HONEST. ;)

Whatever Happened to the ‘Anti-Twilight Army’
from 2008-2009; and WHY don’t you see their support on this blog?

Stephenie Meyer Knows Why Gossip Rags & Paparazzi won’t leave
Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart (or her beloved fans) alone.

That’s why she deserves this blog; and it is why it will not be deleted until either
Steph, her professional cronies and/or her fans do something to fix the situation:

‘They took all of my heat, which I feel bad about,' Stephenie
tells The Times Magazine. ‘If they had the choice, I've no idea if

they'd even do Twilight again. I just don't know.
I think this has all come at a heavy price.'

Ya think, Steph?!!

Robert Pattinson’s Career-Hindering Rover Smear
Based on the Whole Wide World’s Twilight Saga Hate

This movie FLOPPED amidst RARE (for him) GLOWING reviews from movie critics at
film festivals who compared his performance to Leo DiCaprio’s Oscar-Nominated
performance in ‘What’s Eating Gilbert Grape’. Yeah, it’s a HUGE deal!!
This movie would not have tanked without way too much ‘help’ from
tabloid manipulation of Twilight’s huge numbers of anti-fans.

Why the Public Shaming of Kristen Stewart MATTERS to Young Girls
by Nico Lang on Huffington Post

Here’s a splash from Nico’s article: "Trampire:" Why the Public Slut Shaming of Kristen Stewart Matters for Young Women “I don't care if Kristen Stewart and Rupert Sanders did it in a car, in a bar, in a house or with a mouse. But while I might not be concerned for K-Stew, I am concerned for my younger stepsister who idolizes and worships her....” And this is an update from Nico on Salon: Racist 'Twilight' fans won't stop harassing Robert Pattinson's girlfriend, FKA Twigs

Yeah, Twilight’s still-many hateful and overly-obsessed
fans managed to p*ss all over the debut of the proclaimed

Celebrity Rookie of the Year 2014

Aren’t we sweet?




I have had some really good compliments on my corrective-rewrite of The Twilight Saga from both literary experts and Twilight Fans. It is only a summary, with just the first chapter written as complete to give it the foundation that it should have had (takes 2-3 hours for me to read through it all).

Here is one positive review (sorry, have to scroll down to the comments on this post after the click to read): “I have so very many things to say where to start..... Firstly I love your blog and the rewrite, I felt like you have given the characters depth and a new life. If I were a judge I would totally give you custody! … I am even letting my daughter read it with me because its a good story that is appropriate for kids to read and she LOVES LOVES LOVES IT! Just as much as I do! I think what you have written is loving and responsible to the characters and fans, it is well though out, relevant, and…”

BELIEVE me when I say, I would have MUCH RATHER have LOVED Stephenie Meyer's original Twilight Saga all the way to the bittersweet end. There are not many people on this planet who would have been more PROUD and applauding the loudest for a woman (amateur or not) to have written such a hailed TwiMasterpiece - if Stephenie Meyer had actually done that instead of the embarrassing, barely-edited rough-draft that we got.

This corrective re-write summary is actually very forgiving in many places - at least, where Steph is concerned. I'm sure my anger toward these IRRESPONSIBLE "professional" companies will continue to burn for much longer.

I gave your beautiful fairytale a hell of a shot, sinking MONTHS of my time JUST into researching this subject. (Not counting the months before that when you all had me convinced that it was a WORTHY diversion, ha!)

Between these blogs and the rewrite I have probably written as much as either Steph or Erika have; and I certainly put a lot more thought and creativity (not to mention, knowledge) into it. Just insert either author’s purple prose where applicable while you’re reading, since I didn’t write any – and it is darn near perfect, ha! ;)

As such, you can expect my version of The Twilight Saga to not be XXX. I rewrote Twilight by sticking to the storyline; but I made it believable – really, that was possible. In fact, now that Twilight can be shown as a believable story - it is no longer necessary for Anti-Twilight peeps to continue bullying Twilight Fans just because SM didn’t ‘get’ why she needed to make it believable.

WHY did I take the time to flesh out the character of Bella Swan and Twilight’s vampire (and wolf) storylines? BECAUSE VERY FEW OF YOU OLDER LADIES GIVES A SHIT ABOUT HER (and more importantly, the real Human girl, Kristen Stewart and her millions of young fans) - or ANY of the other Twilight characters, for that matter!

It's EDWARD this and EDWARD that (and sometimes Jacob) - Stephenie BARELY INTRODUCED you to her before you all got hooked on this crap. That's why you can pass this story off, you don't care... You're obsessed about Edward Cullen and could care less about any other character. IF this story had been published for you perverted older brats- Yeah, it would maybe be Ok!

I am NOT talking about you young girls if you're in here reading this - I've heard you talk about Bella and all the other characters. I KNOW you both know and love them, dearly. BUT, those of you who WERE NOT debunked by this storyline (no matter what your age was) SEE these characters differently than so many MORE older ladies do!

Believe it or NOT - Stephenie Meyer and the rest of these women out here (I don't care HOW many of them there are against my ONE voice) are BEING BAD, LoL!

IF we were in college... And the instructor had just given us an assignment to write the first chapter for a novel. IF Stephenie Meyer was a college literary student (which she has been - in FACT, she graduated!); she would probably NOT have gotten an "A" on the first chapter of Twilight - I seriously doubt. I wish a few good English teachers who haven't read the books yet would go through it and grade it - just so we would know, for sure.

I'm not saying that *my* version is a literary marvel - but I have a really good excuse. I have NEVER taken a college writing course much less graduated with a literary degree. If this isn't perfect... Yeah, I know. :)

We make our children do their homework - and dot their "I's" and cross their "T's" - but, WHY didn't this grown adult woman have to?!

I'm going to make you all CARE about Bella and her life, as well as every other character surrounding her - INCLUDING EDWARD - who, it seems to me; you've all just taken under the covers with you to have your way with him like Stephenie Meyer was no doubt doing when she WROTE this stupid saga so ignorantly and irresponsibly...

So when it really comes down to it... YOU robsessed ‘fans’ DON'T even care about Robert Pattinson/Edward Cullen, just your sick little "escape"!

The young adult audience that this story was TARGETED FOR - deserved a whole hell of alot better than what they got. THAT is why I rewrote The Twilight Saga... For ALL THOSE former fans who were debunked by Breaking Dawn after it was published; and then abandoned by the arrogant amateur author afterwards.

We KNEW better... and we were EXPECTING better.

AND it IS ALSO for the rest of you... I DARE you; I quadroople-doople DARE you - READ this and tell me you don't care a lot more about Bella at the end of this Chapter One: First Sight rewrite than you did at the end of Stephenie's first one.

You can think whatever you want to about me... But with this, the two things you CAN'T say about me are that *I* don't LOVE this pretty fairytale OR this fanbase.

Yeah, you be the judge – please.


This is a Summary List of Links for this Blog – More Links Galore Within Them!!

Most Popular Keyword Searches
into this blog

The TwiSmears

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Stephenie Meyer

The Fanbases

Why the ‘Cheating’ Scandal Started; Telling on My Big TwiSisters (Aug 2012, 1 mo. After)

Nothing but LOVE for
our Twilight Character
Actors & Actresses

An Anti-Twilight Fan's Dream Talk with SM

Twihards - We Movie Fans
Deserve a Discussion

July 2012 'Cheating' Scandal

What actually happened
to Kristen Stewart with Rupert Sanders that day? Why did robsten really break up?

Why is Twilight so Addictive? How Did it Inspire 50 Shades of Grey?

Questions for Steph:
Twilight, a Post-Mortem

Defining Twilight's
Various Fanbases
…In which I actually
stick up for
Stephenie Meyer, OMG!

Additional & Extended Scandal Timelines

- WAY more info than you want; but some peeps just can’t get enough. ;)

What's Wrong with Twilight Chapter
One: First Sight

1st Original Blog Post
- How Can You See
Steph's Sexual Fantasy
Glaring thru Twilight

Letter to My Little Twilight Sisters – Why I Keep Picking on Twilight.

Pre-Cheating Scandal Smears that have been going on since 2008.

Twilight: Breaking Dawn Parts 1 & 2 Movie Reviews
- easiest to see literary dysfunctions

Ramifications of Wrong Writing in the Case of Twilight Addictions
Whatever happened to the Anti-Twilight Army?

Letter to My Big Twilight Sisters – Are You SURE Breaking Dawn is Okay?

Fan & Anti-Fan Hate-Debate; December 2014
- Fans reveal how harmful tabloids have been via online article comments.

Official Reasoning for
Every Little Thing
Wrong with Twilight

The Most Common Keyword Searches into these blogs
HELP with a Twilight Obsession; Immortalicum & ‘Demonic Messages’?!

Why are so Many OLDER
Fans so sick

What Have Heartbroken Fans Been Saying
Since the Scandal in July 2012?

What EXACTLY is Wrong with Stephenie Meyer’s Sparkling ‘Vampires’?
- Written BEFORE I watched her movies.

What a JOKE!
Twilight is Coming to Facebook Because ‘the voices of women are important to Steph’!!

What Does Robert Pattinson Think About His OLDER ‘robsessed’ Twihard & Anti-Twilight ‘Fans’, BOTH?

What Have Mean Fans Been Saying Since the Scandal in July 2012?

YouTube Video Collection
'What's Wrong with The Twilight Saga'

Final Judgment of
The Twilight Saga
Or, Why I HATE (omg!) SM and Her ARMY of Desperate Housewives – et all TwiJerks & Anti-TwiJerks Over 30.

Help Easing a Stubborn
Twilight and/or Robsten

Robert Pattinson's Post-Scandal Career Hindering Rover Smear
- Based on the Wide World’s Twilight Hate

Fanfiction Corrective Rewrite Summary (2+ hours) Edward Cullen
Explains His Pretty
Vampire Sparkles
believable ending
and MORE!

Let’s Talk About ‘Midnight Sun’
and how Steph Could POSSIBLY Make Her Huge Literary Failure up to The World.

Who am I?


Comments from the Crowd - Love Me or Hate Me

Post Renewed 9/10/12

- How I Know What I'm Talking About -

NEW Comment Section is Here

I originally had something really sweet written in here that was INTENDED to encourage a LOGICAL conversation about all of this stuff with my SERIOUSLY WONKY Twilight Sisters. As you can see, it didn't work very well. What can I say, I was REALLY naive and clueless when I started writing this blog. I ACTUALLY THOUGHT at FIRST that I would NOT be the ONLY TWILIGHT MOVIE FAN who was debunked by this silly saga - but apparently, I AM, LoL!

So now... I don't really care what MEAN things any of you may have to say to me in here. It's pretty obvious that *my* perspective is practically impossible for ANY of you to grasp - probably because I am apparently the Twilight ODDBALL. I'm the crazy Aunt of this dysfunctional family that's obviously been hiding out in Hermitsville for FAR TOO LONG, ha!

BUT, if you're writing ANYTHING in here without READING through at least SOME of this blog first - I WILL make you look like an idiot. I've DONE my homework, I've DONE my RESEARCH... However, I am only TOO HAPPY to carry on LOGICAL conversations at least SEMI-embedded in reality. :)

I've spent MORE TIME reading and writing about Twilight than it took for Stephenie Meyer to write her BRILLIANT masterpiece - AND I EVEN had time to redo this ENTIRE SAGA in a BELIEVABLE rewrite summary ALONG with a critique, JUST to show you all (roughly) how Twilight should/could have been done BELIEVABLY with REAL-make believe VAMPIRES. (You know, the kind we were ALL expecting SO LONG ago now?)

In my personal opinion - and mine isn't the only one - the summary turned out BETTER than Stephenie's version of Twilight. Don't worry, I take absolutely NO pleasure it knowing that. I would have MUCH RATHER have LOVED Steph's original Twilight Saga ALL the way to the end; AND there were MANY OTHER things I would rather had been doing with my precious time.

I know... It's ALL *my* fault that *I* suddenly developed an unusually logic-infused perspective on this subject. That REALLY ISN'T like me at ALL, ha! I ALMOST feel like a GROWN-UP at times, omg! That's one of the reasons why my friends (I DO have a couple of GOOD friends - I only need a couple) are so sure I'm crazy with all of this - I'm USUALLY on the side of "crazy" and "anything/everything goes".

Not this time. If you want to know why, you'll have to keep reading the blog.

Here's one other post that I did with 21 COMMENTS if you want more. I've managed to get you talking a couple of times in here, ha! For the LIFE of me, I CANNOT relate to what your problems are surrounding engaging in this subject with me in HERE. My friends tell me that I'm being too intimidating and scary, but you certainly don't seem to have ANY problems commenting on anyone else's blogs and articles, etc.

Besides... *I'M* being scary, LoL! SOME of you out there are sending CHILLS down my spine! And the ONLY reason I'm being OVER the TOP about all this now is to GET YOUR ATTENTION.

I will admit to TRULY being semi-crazy in my own right - THAT'S why it was SO EASY for ME to become OBSESSED with Twilight WITHOUT having to read the books! That's HOW wonky *my* brain is!

You can believe me or not... I've BEEN where ALOT of you are NOW, except NOT with Twilight - and HAPPILY obsessed, not harmfully! I KNOW how REAL this FEELS to SOME of you; and I've gotten a few emails from your comrades, as well. This Kristen / Robert situation has literally KNOCKED some of you at least partially OUT of your INTENSE obsessions and it's PAINFUL.

That ISN'T healthy for ANY of you - ESPECIALLY since NONE of this is supposed to be REAL!

At times it MAY SEEM like the storm surrounding this Hollywood Hoopla is dying down.

But HOW are you feeling INSIDE, girls... STILL?!



It might help if I didn't continue to sporadically hear from people who are brave enough to reach out for support for their aching hearts - and yeah, even a couple of seriously-angry ladies who are really struggling with their intense feelings of "hatred" towards Kristen - we ALL hate to use that word, it's too strong; but it's the most descriptive one for some people at the moment. These are ALL REAL-FEELING, intense emotions that SOME Twihards ARE struggling with, now.

I JUST don't think you're all fine... I keep seeing TOO MUCH CHAOS out there in your comments and opinions (not ALL of you, of course).

My question to you is... When you walk away from these maddening articles still being written about Kristen Stewart and/or Robert Pattinson... How do you feel?

Do you feel like there is still a bunch of static going on inside of you? Are you sad, disgusted, heartbroken, FURIOUS? Does your heart ever feel like it is racing when you think about it? Can you STOP thinking about it for very long? Do you WORRY about either Kristen Stewart OR Robert Pattinson? DO YOU SOMETIMES STILL CRY AT NIGHT FOR AWHILE BEFORE YOU FALL ASLEEP?

If EVERY SINGLE ONE of you can say NO to every one of these questions, then I'll stop. But if there is EVEN ONE of you out there, that is ONE TOO MANY! 

- Catherine


  1. Ok, I'll try again... I JUST want you all to look at this stuff and figure out why you're so in LOVE with Twilight. I learned so much about myself when I finally started looking at it.

    I'm not asking you to "let Twilight go" (in fact, I REALLY don't think that's a good idea - I WISH I could have HELD onto it!)...

    HONESTLY, my preferred ending to my conflicts with the Breaking Dawn storyline would have been for me to accept it by the time the movie came out in theaters - and I was REALLY working on bringing myself past my silly hangups - because I GET that all this is really so damn silly of me. What the hell WAS my problem with the storyline, I really couldn't figure it out for awhile. I kept trying to brush it aside, but it kept gnawing in the back of my brain. I WANTED to STAY in my FANTASY!

    And then when all this occurred to me, it snowballed into what you see now. You may not believe this, but I'm REALLY almost just as mad at myself for being so ridiculous as the rest of you are.

    But once I began to understand how harmful this beautiful story has really been on our culture - the people I felt the most sympathy for was the book fans who had originally been embedded by this story who ended up so defunked. I could REALLY feel for them because they HAD to be so much more into the story and practically dying for it to be published than I was in looking forward to the movies coming out. To be SO let down has really been disheartening.

    I'm 10 years old inside, and I'm pouting and stomping my feet and throwing a fit because I REALLY don't think its very fair of you all to get such a DAMN COOL STORY and NOT ME!

    HA! Yeah, you're right... I AM selfish, what can I say?!

    Can't we talk?

    I'd really prefer to keep this all in the family. Surely all of us Twilight fans can find a way to co-exist? We have ONE really powerful "thing" in common, after all - we all LOVE TWILIGHT, Dearly!

  2. You ARE ridiculous as you stated. The only difference I would point out is that you should have pointed out how ridiculousy idiotic and psychotic you are as well! If I were you, I wouldn't quit my day job (in other words, your writing makes little to no sense and you have absolutely NO future in it!!) This is a fiction book. If you don't like it, don't read it. Simple as that! I have just recently began the series, mostly out of curiosity to see what all the fuss was about, and since everyone praises the storyline. I think it is well written, imaginative (which is a staple in any good fiction piece), and fun. While I wouldn't consider it the best book series I have ever read,(actually, not even close!), I can see the draw for young girls! You sound like you are one of the seriously obsessed that you speak about. You may want to seriously consider setting up an appointment with that friend of yours, (Steven?), for a psychological evaluation! Stephenie Meyers, the "amateur" writer you speak of, is laughing her "amateur" bum all the way to the bank!! Stop hating on her talent and stroke of luck! It would also be in your best interest to find a new calling in life, because the writing in your blog is long, scattered, boring, and ridiculous... pretty much the exact opposite of Mrs. Meyers writing! I just wish I could get the time back that I spent skimming through this crap! I'm not even sure why I didn't hit 'X' on the page after the first sentence!

  3. Ummmmmm... Thanks for the opinion. I'm really sorry if my writing is scattered and long. I've already spent SO much time on this, and honestly - I REALLY don't think its THAT bad, but opinions are opinions. I've already admitted that brevity isn't my best suit.

    And thanks for the recommendation on being an author - it is, in fact, one of the reasons why I've never pursued it. All my stuff turns out alot like Stephenie Meyer's - that's probably another reason why I can recognize it, ha!

    And also just FYI... I've BEEN to lots of therapy sessions over the course of my life with various "specialists". They don't work for me - which is one of the reasons why I've just "given up" and live my life the dysfunctional "way" I do.

    And by the way... I may be f*#k** in the head, but I know good storytelling when I see it - and THIS ISN'T IT!


  4. BTW, YEAH for those of you who have MISSED it... This blog is VERY MUCH on behalf of people who are/were are crazy as I am about Twilight - whether they like it or not. READ my FIRST blog post ALL the WAY thru to find out WHY! You've spent ALL this time on the Twilight Saga, I'm sure you can find another half hour or so to put towards it.



  6. I haven't even gotten through a portion of your stuff but I had to stop here just to say. I'm a big fan of the books and I was disappointed in the whole baby thing BUT seeing as how it is fiction AND someone elses sexual fantacy I was able to accept it well enough (I'm no writer but I would like to think I could have come up with something a little better too) because at the end of the day the author made the Edward fans happy and kept Jacob in Bellas life wich most likely kept team Jacob fans happy too. Seeing as how I did read the books all the way through I have tried very hard to keep my opinions about the movie as non-judgemental as possible , But I admit it's not easy the 1st movie is one I love to hate. I love the movie but hate it because it does veer so far away from the book that it just annoys me to no end. The 2nd was better by a slight margine because the budget was better and it stayed with the book a little better (let me add here I hate hate hated Alices hair in 1,2,and 3 lol sorry it's a trivial thing I know) but was still lacking in the intencity of the emotions in the book. 3rd again better because it stayed truer to the book then the prevous 2 BUT still left out soo much of the emotion between Bella, Jacob, and Edward witch was needed to make this fairytale/horror story stay interesting. I am not a Twihard addict but I enjoied the books and the movies make it easier to visualize the charaters even though some of them where not what I had visualized while reading the books. Breaking Dawn part 1 really in my opinion made up for Twilight being such a terrible movie. They focused on the important things from the book very well and I was impressed with the detail of the pregnancy and birth of the unexplainable baby. All in all I think the books and movies shouldn't be taken for anymore then what they are a pretty good way to pass time when you are bored A good was to leave reality for a while and have your dream man tell you how perfect and loved you are every second while in this alternate reality. Things like Twilight are not meant to be taken so seriously relax and have fun with it An I was dissapointed with several things in the book Breaking Dawn but thats what makes the journey of reading so fun not knowing how it will end until it's too late to turn back even when it didn't end how you wanted it to.

    So far I am enjoying what I am reading here keep up the good work express yourself even if NOONE agrees with you or EVERYONE does.

    1. Thanks for the support for a crazy person - I appreciate it, ha! I replied to your post on my blog without realizing I wasn't actually "replying" to you - so, FYI.

      And also, I realize that one of them sounds a little "hot". The *you* that I am referring to in my 2nd post is largely toward the people who don't see anything at all wrong with this story, and whose "noise" & support caused these movies to be made like this.

      I appreciate that YOU seem to know what this story is and can get past it, anyway. And while it completely eludes me as to HOW you can, I envy you. ;)

      Thanks for the non-heated, level-headed feedback, its been rare. :)

      - Catherine

  7. I posted the last reply and I agree the movie only fans should not be snubbed things should have been explained in the movie so you don't have to run out and read the books

  8. Thanks Anonymous, sorry I haven't been paying much attention to comments in here, lately.

    I've heard that Breaking Dawn is nothing but well-done and beautiful (except for the talking wolf scene, everyone seems to unanimously agree that is a bad scene with few exceptions, ha!)

    I've also heard that they changed how Bella is changed into a Vampire - by making everyone think that she might actually be dead for awhile before the big drama of her opening her eyes.

    I was disappointed to hear that... I may not have read the books, but I did read portions that interested me; and I thought the part where Bella was changing into a Vampire was well-written and suspenseful. Her heart was beating until she turns and then it stops, and it seems like the whole world skips a beat for a second. It's an intense moment, and they CHANGED IT?! WHY do they keep changing the things they don't need to change, and NOT change the things they NEED to change?

    It's actually kinda funny just how behind the mark I am; and yet, I don't think anything could have been done about this issue before now - not before BD was almost done and Twihards could breath a sigh of relief.

    Still... I think there are some really good reason to open this debate again.

    I understand that this blog is not only long-winded, but written by someone who just can't tone it down anymore.

    So to maybe summarize my main points in here:

    1) Why is it Ok for such a badly-written (literally, not just the storyline) book to be an acceptable thing for ANY professional piece of work that gets published? What are we saying to our kids in regards to what kinds of literary practices get rewarded in this world? I mean, why work for anything if you can just slip through the cracks like Stephenie did?

    2) I think this point gets missed the most... I don't think this story would have been harmful AT ALL if it had NOT been directed at young girls. This story was originally an ADULT novel, then worked into a YA novel JUST so that the dysfunctional mythological aspects of it could be brushed off. But YA's were already familiar with these creatures. SM supposedly wrote this for them... I say she USED them, and they/we got WAY more addicted than we would/should have because of manipulative, greedy companies who did not do their profession jobs well enough. This is what my petition is about.

    3) What about next time someone wants to publish such destructive literature to the financially-lucrative YA mass audience - it's Ok as long as you tap into where women live & breath so that you have their passions behind them backing whatever crappy thing you're trying to pass off, out here...

    4) MOST IMPORTANT... What about all the people before me of ALL AGES AMONG BOTH GENDERS who were debunked by this dysfunctional storyline ending and suffered varying degrees of emotional distress because of it? I'm obviously late to the party, but it doesn't change the fact that SM caused MANY of her fans the SAME kind of distress at the time Breaking Dawn was published as you see me exhibit in here. I'm NO DIFFERENT than they are/were - really. We should have ALL gotten a "beautiful fairytale" not just some of us.

    I loved Twilight, and I feel nothing but betrayed by the author and those who stuck up for this book so passionately for so long with all these glaring, VALID comments, opinions and yeah - even FACTS.

    So yeah - I'm STILL trying to make this go VIRAL because I don't think any of the creators of this pathetic excuse for a saga deserved one red cent they earned off of Twilight.

    Please read through this... I'm NOT a hateful, unreasonable or even completely crazy person. I'm just someone who is a little wonky who also happens to be right about the majority of this.

    What are we going to do about it? WHY do anything?

    Watch my videos, please... and be prepared to hit the pause button, there are alot of things on the screen you'll miss that are not being said.

    And, thanks. :)

  9. One more thing, Anonymous... I'd relax and "just enjoy" this "simple, beautiful little escape" if I could - and someday, I just may (it ISN'T like I haven't TRIED). But not today or anytime soon.

    NOT because I don't WANT to. IF I get no other point across in here this one should be clear to you - suspension of belief is an important literary concept that was completely ignored within Twilight. *I* (and a whole bunch of other people like me) WOULD NOT have been debunked and thrown into such chaotic emotional turmoil IF this important concept had been taken seriously - as it SHOULD HAVE BEEN.

    I'm MAD because I'm FORCED to go THROUGH this SHIT - just because SMeyer and the rest of you INSISTED on staying in this crap. I really don't think your perverted fun should be had at ANYONE else's expense - not mine or anyone's.

    I'm sorry, I simply do NOT appreciate the frame of mind I am in (yeah, I know what your opinion is regarding this, too - it's *my fault* that I'm fucked in the head). I WOULDN'T BE HERE if "The Twilight Saga" had been written AND PUBLISHED RESPONSIBLY.

    MAYBE someday I'll laugh about all this - not today.

  10. Wow what an interesting page… and even more interesting comments.

    I don’t think you’re crazy Catherine – in fact you seem quite passionate and fair in your comments. You’re obviously a fan and you care enough to create this open forum.

    When it comes to any type of writing and the big screen, especially when it comes to demographics, it’s going to be chewed and that’s unfortunate. I also agree that the writers are pretty lame and have in some way gotten into the psyche of the Twilight watcher in ways that might not be completely authentic.

    I’m many would agree with you on your points... some might disagree but that’s the beauty about this blog you’ve created.


BTW, this poll used to contain 508 votes at one point in time. I'm not sure what has happened with losing votes - either Twihards who originally voted realized their votes were incriminating their beloved goddess/amateur author; OR all these accounts have simply been closed over the course of four months for whatever reasons. Doesn't matter, I've got the original 'important' numbers recorded within these posts.

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