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This isn’t your typical ‘anti-twilight’ blog… This is yet another email (complete with semi-subtle death threat) from someone asking questions about it that some of you may be asking, yourself. Don’t assume that you know what this blog is about simply because you’ve argued on Stephenie Meyer’s behalf before.
This is the very first post on this blog, from my ‘clueless movie fan’ perspective. It was written on Thanksgiving Day, 2011 – then published in here a few days later, after I could reread it and do some editing. It is hysterically funny and incredibly poignant at the same time – for those of you who can’t see Stephenie Meyer’s amateur sexual fantasy floating around in The Twilight Saga. This post is what those of us who ARE familiar with vampires experienced because of Breaking Dawn’s unbelievable ending; and it may help explain for you why this blog exists. It is where absolutely everything started; and demonstrates my intentions for this blog from the beginning. Believe it or not, they were NOT MEAN.
At first, I didn’t know why things were wrong; I only knew that they were – so I was making excuses for Stephenie Meyer in the beginning, LoL! Really… every single estranged TwiFan that she has, USED to be at least a real semi-fan of hers.
Please be patient. I know that most people who are familiar with this controversy have passionate opinions; but what about the rest of you who are completely clueless? I wrote this so that readers would not have to jump off the page, as much. I recommend reading through once; then going back to read links for more details, later. If you get too angry to keep reading, pause and scroll down to the side link collection. I used to be a clueless person in the world, and then a clueless Twilight Movie Fan for a while, too. You’ll see more about me, below. And please forgive the caps, in places. I don’t see them as shouting as some peeps do. They are simply meant to make those words stand out, and that is all…
This blog is all about the accidental and painful over-obsessions of The Twilight Fanbases
that has CONTINUED with a decade of worldwide bullying and intentional,
emotionally-harsh attacks on the hearts & minds of little TwiFangirls (and big ones).
The feelings of obsessed fans are real even if
their obsessions are not - until they drift away.
You all KNOW THIS.
Suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death for 15 - 24 year olds in the US.
These are all REAL issues, to name a few - for MILLIONS of people:
Maladaptive Daydreaming
Absorption
Dissociative Disorder
This one is the worst biggie, and starting
to be considered an EPIDEMIC
Why are the obsessions of young girls important?
Because their feelings are real even if the obsessions are not – until they drift away. Young girls NEED their fairytale ‘escapes’ MUCH MORE than older ones do because they have limited ways to cope with life’s crap (read the comments beneath these neverending, misogynistic tabloid assaults – this one is from January 2016). If you’ve never been forced to endure public high school in the US (or anywhere, probably); or been abused as a child (unfortunately, still a common occurrence) - then of course you can’t possibly relate.
How Did this Blog Change to
Tabloid & Paparazzi Reform
- Yeah, I have some really good reasons beyond
Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson and their Fans
(Although I’m pretty sure they are enough reason at this point.)
Why Do People Hate Bella Swan and Kristen Stewart?
Believe it or not, this is a very easy question to answer;
and NO it isn’t because she ‘cheated’.
TwiNewsflash: The concerning over-obsessions of young women was the ONLY REASON that Breaking Dawn was forgiven when it was published in 2008. The ONLY people who have defended this story for being written ‘just like it is’ because ‘Stephenie Meyer is a literary genius’ are her YOUNG (and young-at-heart) fans who were used by both the amateur author and her publisher because ‘they weren’t supposed to know any better’ about vampires.
And, these are the fans who get hit & hurt the most by world bullying. It is really crappy of SM and you older ladies to continue letting them believe what they believe about these books - while they ignorantly & arrogantly (in their over-obsessions) deal with all the hate surrounding Twilight that still exists in big, dynamic ways.
Email Excerpt: “Thank you for writing that wonderful blog.. it was heaven sent.. …Please someone tell him (this is ‘why the cheating scandal started’, Aug 2012). He just texted me and said he told my mom.. and for me to get some help.. and bye.. please tell him… Everyone is doing this and it’s killing me.. but everyone acts like they don’t know what I’m talking about.. I don’t think I’ve ever needed anything so bad in all my life than for someone to tell him.. I know they are trying to drive me crazy.. and it’s starting to work.. thanks again, was truly a blessing I needed to read very much so.”
Another email excerpt that I hear all the time from all types of fans:
“…I have tried speaking to my good friend about my obsession and, as with all of my friends,
doesn't like Twilight and totally judged me lol so your feedback means a lot.”
How to Soothe an Intense Twilight / Robsessed / Krisbian / Robsten Obsession
Anti-Twilight Fans could SEE what Stephenie Meyer didn’t MEAN to write;
and Erika didn’t MEAN to write her books ignorantly, either.
Adult women have 50 Shades of obsessive fog to get past before
they can possibly begin to think clearly about this subject.
Why does The Twilight Saga have so many anti-fans? Why are there hardly any male fans? How did Twilight’s infamous obsessions become over-obsessions? Why are so many older women more obsessed than younger ones? Why did the fandom fracture into several various fanbases that fight among themselves? How did we get 50 Shades of Grey out of all this commotion?
I recorded four wildly-ranting videos (this one is my favorite – calling SM out, ha!) over three years ago at the height of my own very unwanted Twilight over-obsession (It’s not like you can unwatch or unread something – or reclaim wasted time). At that point, I was really mad about ‘how I was obsessed’ with this pretty fairytale; and I was mad that Stephenie Meyer had ‘accidentally’ done this to so many other people before me - and didn’t correct any of the dysfunction in her books before she made them into movies.
I actually say this in the second video before I had even heard of 50 Shades of Grey... “It sounds to me like Stephenie has some sort of BDSM fetish, but I don’t even sort of want to think about that right now.” (Video #12 is where you will hear me say this.)
And yet, somehow 50 Shades of Grey (this post is what exactly is wrong with fifty shades) exists as Twilight Fanfiction; and is yet another dysfunctional worldwide ‘phenomenon’?! Do you have any idea how disturbing that is? Not only does it make my skin crawl – it’s just wrong.
There are real amateur literary reasons why Twilight messed with so many people’s heads – especially OLDER women; and we are the ones who get called ‘crazy’ for it - unless we manage to write another dysfunctional (XXX!) blockbuster based on all this negligence…
Did you know that Steph’s publisher didn’t want to publish Breaking Dawn? Did you know that New Moon & Eclipse were not supposed to be in between the 1st & last books? Do you ‘get’ that she didn’t mean to cause so many of her OLDER fans to see Edward Cullen the way they came to see him as Christian Grey? Do you understand that these are the reasons why the world has always &STILL bullies Twilight Fans, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson because of her amateur writing mistakes?
Sick-in-the-head older women had absolutely no right to hijack the pretty fairytale of young girls via Fifty Shades of Grey; and they should care when their daughters are being bullied by the world over it, incessantly.
What’s Wrong with Twilight: Chapter One, First Sight?
The Condensed Version:
The Four Main Complaints of this Blog
against Stephenie Meyer and her ‘professional’ Publishers &
Production Franchise for RARE & irresponsible,
professionally-negligent publishing and movie production.
When the first Twilight movie was being made in 2008; the last book, Breaking Dawn had not been released, yet. Because of this, no one knew at that time that Stephenie Meyer was going to bomb her pretty fairytale into the ground until it was published a few months before the release of the first film.
Extreme chaos & debate surrounded Steph and The Twilight Saga at that time for the exact same reasons that surrounds 50 Shades of Grey - but somehow, she got through it (see side links)...
If 'Midnight Sun' had not been 'accidentally' leaked just prior to the first movie being rushed; AND Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson had not BOTH nailed their parts in that first movie - Twilight would have been history.
Stephenie Meyer could have written any 'ol ending for her infamously overly-obsessed fans (and really, that seems like what she did); and they would have lapped it up like honey (and they did – especially the ones who didn’t know any better, couldn’t see what was wrong – or didn’t care, because of fifty Shades of BEDWARD!!
The entire world has done nothing but treat Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson AND their emotionally-invested fans like sh*t, since - and the infighting among Twilight's divided and HATEFUL fanbases is ongoing.
Despite all this, 'feminists' have embraced the latest and greatest dysfunctional character, Christian Grey/Edward Cullen/Prince Charming...
Popular Email Question: Why does Stephenie Meyer need to apologize? Because the world can’t heal from the wounds she has inflicted on it if she doesn’t acknowledge her amateur mistakes and apologize for them. All she has done from the beginning of her controversies is metaphorically flip off her critics. While normally that is exactly what you are supposed to do… In this case, with all the professional exceptions that were made while The Twilight Saga was being published; the amateur author (AND the publisher AND production franchise) really needed to be listening to fans. It is NOT NORMAL for roughly half of your fanbase (much less, the world!) to become so angry with you regarding a casual creative expression.
I am just using this true stuff about SM’s amateur writing to grab your attention – and boy does it grab some of you, ha! Now if we could just get past that part of things… I really could care less about Stephenie Meyer’s or EL James’ many ignorant and irresponsible amateur literary mistakes that caused all this chaos. Believe it or not, I have stuck up for Stephenie Meyer so many times over this issue, it’s ridiculous.
Creative ‘Freedom of Speech’ is DIFFERENT than the illegal type of ‘Freedom of Speech’ that tabloids & paparazzi hide behind.
Freedom of Speech and Freedom of the Press were meant to create transparency in order to protect the truth about absolutely everything - not provide a way for mean, greedy tabloid liars to make money off of young (and young-at-heart) fans who are practically defenseless against emotional tabloid & paparazzi assaults (not to mention how even more defenseless Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson are against them)…
This blog now has but one mission: Tabloid & Paparazzi Reform for all celebrities past & present (Princess Diana, anyone?) and it has been that since July 25, 2012 – the day after the infamous cheating scandal. Oh yeah, I’ve been on their stinky tails from the beginning. It hasn’t even been SORT of fun! I really hope we can all manage to put aside our differences and unite to stick it to them, someday. Tabloids & papz so deserve it!!
I don’t care how long it takes. Aside from having really good reasons other than Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson to be concerned for celebrity rights; we fans – no matter which side of the ring we fight on – are getting awfully tired of being manipulated and watching our favorite celebrities being harassed. So many of you do not ‘get’ this; but Robert Pattinson is being attacked and/or used as much as Kristen Stewart in these kinds of stories – no matter ‘how nice’ they seem to be slanted toward him, at times. It is just another way to pour salt on the wounds of their fans by being misogynistic toward both them and Kristen at the same time – using Robert and her anti-fans against their will!!
This is because the world has no respect for Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson or Twilight fans – any version of them; BECAUSE of Stephenie Meyer’s offensive & insulting amateur writing (another reason why she needs to apologize). To the rest of the world, we’re all simply hysterical to bully; just another section of the populace to be targeted and made fun of for profits – via outright assaults and numerous lie upon lie that continues…
Boycott all online and print tabloids until they volunteer to reform.
Ok, I'll try again... I JUST want you all to look at this stuff and figure out why you're so in LOVE with Twilight. I learned so much about myself when I finally started looking at it.
ReplyDeleteI'm not asking you to "let Twilight go" (in fact, I REALLY don't think that's a good idea - I WISH I could have HELD onto it!)...
HONESTLY, my preferred ending to my conflicts with the Breaking Dawn storyline would have been for me to accept it by the time the movie came out in theaters - and I was REALLY working on bringing myself past my silly hangups - because I GET that all this is really so damn silly of me. What the hell WAS my problem with the storyline, I really couldn't figure it out for awhile. I kept trying to brush it aside, but it kept gnawing in the back of my brain. I WANTED to STAY in my FANTASY!
And then when all this occurred to me, it snowballed into what you see now. You may not believe this, but I'm REALLY almost just as mad at myself for being so ridiculous as the rest of you are.
But once I began to understand how harmful this beautiful story has really been on our culture - the people I felt the most sympathy for was the book fans who had originally been embedded by this story who ended up so defunked. I could REALLY feel for them because they HAD to be so much more into the story and practically dying for it to be published than I was in looking forward to the movies coming out. To be SO let down has really been disheartening.
I'm 10 years old inside, and I'm pouting and stomping my feet and throwing a fit because I REALLY don't think its very fair of you all to get such a DAMN COOL STORY and NOT ME!
HA! Yeah, you're right... I AM selfish, what can I say?!
Can't we talk?
I'd really prefer to keep this all in the family. Surely all of us Twilight fans can find a way to co-exist? We have ONE really powerful "thing" in common, after all - we all LOVE TWILIGHT, Dearly!
You ARE ridiculous as you stated. The only difference I would point out is that you should have pointed out how ridiculousy idiotic and psychotic you are as well! If I were you, I wouldn't quit my day job (in other words, your writing makes little to no sense and you have absolutely NO future in it!!) This is a fiction book. If you don't like it, don't read it. Simple as that! I have just recently began the series, mostly out of curiosity to see what all the fuss was about, and since everyone praises the storyline. I think it is well written, imaginative (which is a staple in any good fiction piece), and fun. While I wouldn't consider it the best book series I have ever read,(actually, not even close!), I can see the draw for young girls! You sound like you are one of the seriously obsessed that you speak about. You may want to seriously consider setting up an appointment with that friend of yours, (Steven?), for a psychological evaluation! Stephenie Meyers, the "amateur" writer you speak of, is laughing her "amateur" bum all the way to the bank!! Stop hating on her talent and stroke of luck! It would also be in your best interest to find a new calling in life, because the writing in your blog is long, scattered, boring, and ridiculous... pretty much the exact opposite of Mrs. Meyers writing! I just wish I could get the time back that I spent skimming through this crap! I'm not even sure why I didn't hit 'X' on the page after the first sentence!
ReplyDeleteUmmmmmm... Thanks for the opinion. I'm really sorry if my writing is scattered and long. I've already spent SO much time on this, and honestly - I REALLY don't think its THAT bad, but opinions are opinions. I've already admitted that brevity isn't my best suit.
ReplyDeleteAnd thanks for the recommendation on being an author - it is, in fact, one of the reasons why I've never pursued it. All my stuff turns out alot like Stephenie Meyer's - that's probably another reason why I can recognize it, ha!
And also just FYI... I've BEEN to lots of therapy sessions over the course of my life with various "specialists". They don't work for me - which is one of the reasons why I've just "given up" and live my life the dysfunctional "way" I do.
And by the way... I may be f*#k** in the head, but I know good storytelling when I see it - and THIS ISN'T IT!
YOU DIDN'T EVEN READ THE LINKS ALONG THE SIDE, DID YOU - COWARD!
BTW, YEAH for those of you who have MISSED it... This blog is VERY MUCH on behalf of people who are/were are crazy as I am about Twilight - whether they like it or not. READ my FIRST blog post ALL the WAY thru to find out WHY! You've spent ALL this time on the Twilight Saga, I'm sure you can find another half hour or so to put towards it.
ReplyDeleteGOD - *I* WOULDN'T HAVE PUT ONE FUCKING SECOND TOWARDS TWILIGHT HAD I KNOWN HOW FUCKED UP IT WAS TO BEGIN WITH!
ReplyDeleteYOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MADDENING IT IS TO NOT BE ABLE TO DROP IT LIKE THE BOMB IT IS!
I haven't even gotten through a portion of your stuff but I had to stop here just to say. I'm a big fan of the books and I was disappointed in the whole baby thing BUT seeing as how it is fiction AND someone elses sexual fantacy I was able to accept it well enough (I'm no writer but I would like to think I could have come up with something a little better too) because at the end of the day the author made the Edward fans happy and kept Jacob in Bellas life wich most likely kept team Jacob fans happy too. Seeing as how I did read the books all the way through I have tried very hard to keep my opinions about the movie as non-judgemental as possible , But I admit it's not easy the 1st movie is one I love to hate. I love the movie but hate it because it does veer so far away from the book that it just annoys me to no end. The 2nd was better by a slight margine because the budget was better and it stayed with the book a little better (let me add here I hate hate hated Alices hair in 1,2,and 3 lol sorry it's a trivial thing I know) but was still lacking in the intencity of the emotions in the book. 3rd again better because it stayed truer to the book then the prevous 2 BUT still left out soo much of the emotion between Bella, Jacob, and Edward witch was needed to make this fairytale/horror story stay interesting. I am not a Twihard addict but I enjoied the books and the movies make it easier to visualize the charaters even though some of them where not what I had visualized while reading the books. Breaking Dawn part 1 really in my opinion made up for Twilight being such a terrible movie. They focused on the important things from the book very well and I was impressed with the detail of the pregnancy and birth of the unexplainable baby. All in all I think the books and movies shouldn't be taken for anymore then what they are a pretty good way to pass time when you are bored A good was to leave reality for a while and have your dream man tell you how perfect and loved you are every second while in this alternate reality. Things like Twilight are not meant to be taken so seriously relax and have fun with it An I was dissapointed with several things in the book Breaking Dawn but thats what makes the journey of reading so fun not knowing how it will end until it's too late to turn back even when it didn't end how you wanted it to.
ReplyDeleteSo far I am enjoying what I am reading here keep up the good work express yourself even if NOONE agrees with you or EVERYONE does.
Thanks for the support for a crazy person - I appreciate it, ha! I replied to your post on my blog without realizing I wasn't actually "replying" to you - so, FYI.
DeleteAnd also, I realize that one of them sounds a little "hot". The *you* that I am referring to in my 2nd post is largely toward the people who don't see anything at all wrong with this story, and whose "noise" & support caused these movies to be made like this.
I appreciate that YOU seem to know what this story is and can get past it, anyway. And while it completely eludes me as to HOW you can, I envy you. ;)
Thanks for the non-heated, level-headed feedback, its been rare. :)
- Catherine
I posted the last reply and I agree the movie only fans should not be snubbed things should have been explained in the movie so you don't have to run out and read the books
ReplyDeleteThanks Anonymous, sorry I haven't been paying much attention to comments in here, lately.
ReplyDeleteI've heard that Breaking Dawn is nothing but well-done and beautiful (except for the talking wolf scene, everyone seems to unanimously agree that is a bad scene with few exceptions, ha!)
I've also heard that they changed how Bella is changed into a Vampire - by making everyone think that she might actually be dead for awhile before the big drama of her opening her eyes.
I was disappointed to hear that... I may not have read the books, but I did read portions that interested me; and I thought the part where Bella was changing into a Vampire was well-written and suspenseful. Her heart was beating until she turns and then it stops, and it seems like the whole world skips a beat for a second. It's an intense moment, and they CHANGED IT?! WHY do they keep changing the things they don't need to change, and NOT change the things they NEED to change?
It's actually kinda funny just how behind the mark I am; and yet, I don't think anything could have been done about this issue before now - not before BD was almost done and Twihards could breath a sigh of relief.
Still... I think there are some really good reason to open this debate again.
I understand that this blog is not only long-winded, but written by someone who just can't tone it down anymore.
So to maybe summarize my main points in here:
1) Why is it Ok for such a badly-written (literally, not just the storyline) book to be an acceptable thing for ANY professional piece of work that gets published? What are we saying to our kids in regards to what kinds of literary practices get rewarded in this world? I mean, why work for anything if you can just slip through the cracks like Stephenie did?
2) I think this point gets missed the most... I don't think this story would have been harmful AT ALL if it had NOT been directed at young girls. This story was originally an ADULT novel, then worked into a YA novel JUST so that the dysfunctional mythological aspects of it could be brushed off. But YA's were already familiar with these creatures. SM supposedly wrote this for them... I say she USED them, and they/we got WAY more addicted than we would/should have because of manipulative, greedy companies who did not do their profession jobs well enough. This is what my petition is about.
3) What about next time someone wants to publish such destructive literature to the financially-lucrative YA mass audience - it's Ok as long as you tap into where women live & breath so that you have their passions behind them backing whatever crappy thing you're trying to pass off, out here...
4) MOST IMPORTANT... What about all the people before me of ALL AGES AMONG BOTH GENDERS who were debunked by this dysfunctional storyline ending and suffered varying degrees of emotional distress because of it? I'm obviously late to the party, but it doesn't change the fact that SM caused MANY of her fans the SAME kind of distress at the time Breaking Dawn was published as you see me exhibit in here. I'm NO DIFFERENT than they are/were - really. We should have ALL gotten a "beautiful fairytale" not just some of us.
I loved Twilight, and I feel nothing but betrayed by the author and those who stuck up for this book so passionately for so long with all these glaring, VALID comments, opinions and yeah - even FACTS.
So yeah - I'm STILL trying to make this go VIRAL because I don't think any of the creators of this pathetic excuse for a saga deserved one red cent they earned off of Twilight.
Please read through this... I'm NOT a hateful, unreasonable or even completely crazy person. I'm just someone who is a little wonky who also happens to be right about the majority of this.
What are we going to do about it? WHY do anything?
Watch my videos, please... and be prepared to hit the pause button, there are alot of things on the screen you'll miss that are not being said.
And, thanks. :)
One more thing, Anonymous... I'd relax and "just enjoy" this "simple, beautiful little escape" if I could - and someday, I just may (it ISN'T like I haven't TRIED). But not today or anytime soon.
ReplyDeleteNOT because I don't WANT to. IF I get no other point across in here this one should be clear to you - suspension of belief is an important literary concept that was completely ignored within Twilight. *I* (and a whole bunch of other people like me) WOULD NOT have been debunked and thrown into such chaotic emotional turmoil IF this important concept had been taken seriously - as it SHOULD HAVE BEEN.
I'm MAD because I'm FORCED to go THROUGH this SHIT - just because SMeyer and the rest of you INSISTED on staying in this crap. I really don't think your perverted fun should be had at ANYONE else's expense - not mine or anyone's.
I'm sorry, I simply do NOT appreciate the frame of mind I am in (yeah, I know what your opinion is regarding this, too - it's *my fault* that I'm fucked in the head). I WOULDN'T BE HERE if "The Twilight Saga" had been written AND PUBLISHED RESPONSIBLY.
MAYBE someday I'll laugh about all this - not today.
Wow what an interesting page… and even more interesting comments.
ReplyDeleteI don’t think you’re crazy Catherine – in fact you seem quite passionate and fair in your comments. You’re obviously a fan and you care enough to create this open forum.
When it comes to any type of writing and the big screen, especially when it comes to demographics, it’s going to be chewed and that’s unfortunate. I also agree that the writers are pretty lame and have in some way gotten into the psyche of the Twilight watcher in ways that might not be completely authentic.
I’m many would agree with you on your points... some might disagree but that’s the beauty about this blog you’ve created.