Update 8/27/15 - This is the most important post on these Twilight blogs, because this is what the majority of people are searching for at the moment: Still addicted to twilight; and how to get past a twilight obsession. If you want advice from someone who has been down that road ahead of you - along with people who are going through it right now – check this out.

Yes, this is the reason why a blog like this about Twilight and Stephenie Meyer still exists: “…Thank you for writing that wonderful blog.. it was heaven sent. …Please someone tell him. He just texted me and said he told my mom..and for me to get some help..and bye..please tell him…”

The world will no-doubt continue to ignore the pleas of young women. Lord knows older women are 50 Shades of Grey more accidentally-overly-obsessed to care about them. Do you know that suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death for 15 - 24 year olds in the United States?!!

If you came in from an outside link, scroll down past the link table (so sorry!) to read that specific post. Also, scroll down when you click on blog links in here – many of these top links are elsewhere with no introduction. A lot of people leave before reading through this because they are fans who are immediately incensed at the title and description; or anti-fans who become incensed because I just added Kristen Stewart’s image at the top – which is now down at the bottom. But, those things grab your attention.

I started out trying to be nice, but that doesn’t even sort of work – and this stuff is important. Every person who has had questions about Twilight and/or Fifty Shades should be reading this whether they are fans of those series’ or not.

There are real amateur literary reasons why Twilight messed with so many people’s heads – especially older women; and we are the ones who get called ‘crazy’ for it - unless we manage to write a XXX blockbuster based on all this negligence…

This intro is a summary of everything, starting at the end with Fifty Shades of Grey. Please be patient. I wrote this so that readers would not have to jump off the page, as much. I am working on significantly-shortening this; but for now, it is all relevant and semi-recent. I recommend reading through once; then going back to read links for more details, later. If you get too angry to keep reading, pause and scroll down to the side link collection. I used to be a clueless person in the world, and then a clueless Twilight Movie Fan for a while, too. You’ll see more about me, below. And please forgive the caps, in places. I don’t see them as shouting as some peeps do. They are simply meant to make those words stand out, and that is all…

Update 8/18/15 - Every once in a while I post an update regarding emails I receive – because the majority of you don’t believe that I receive them.

To start, this is one of my most recent email exchanges that started on 8/16/15 regarding how to get past a Twilight obsession. Keyword searches into this blog go through phases, and how to deal with obsessions is one of the most popular & recurring ones. Many fans of all ages are still having problems dealing with their obsessions because they ARE NOT NORMAL ‘teenage’ obsessions. This post will also demonstrate that; and I will tell you how I got past my own intense Twilight obsession (along with how I ‘got into’ Twilight) in the responses. It is really weird how many people who are obsessed with Twilight started out not really liking the ‘sparkling’ concept of it. Both she and I have that in common – I hear stories like this all the time, too.

I’m sharing this email along with additional excerpts from other blog posts that have really seemed to help various people who are struggling. One of the sad things is that this it is such a typical email for me from a mom; and she talks about things that so many other people keep mentioning over and over – so, it seems important.

If you are having problems getting past your addiction to Twilight, Edward Cullen / Bella Swan or ‘robsten’ – CLICK HERE. I’ve tried to tackle this subject in many places; but this is probably the most condensed version, yet.

Next, I am still hearing from people who consider The Twilight Saga to have been manipulated into Stephenie Meyer’s mind by some sort of mystical or evil influence. No, we Humans are perfectly capable of creating our own evil. I address that issue more thoroughly in this ‘common keywords’ post. Scroll down past the list of obsession keywords to ‘did stephenie meyer channel twilight’.

And lastly, I get asked this question every once in a while; and I heard it at least four or five times over the past few days… “Why does Stephenie Meyer need to apologize?”

Because the world can’t heal from the wounds she has inflicted on it if she doesn’t acknowledge her amateur mistakes and apologize for them. All she has done from the beginning of her controversies is metaphorically flip off her critics. While normally that is exactly what you are supposed to do… In this case, with all the professional exceptions that were made while The Twilight Saga was being published; the amateur author (AND the publisher AND production franchise) really needed to be listening to fans. It is NOT NORMAL for roughly half of your fanbase (much less, the world!) to become so angry with you regarding a casual creative expression.

The reason why this blog is still here and relevant, is because of Hollywood’s emotionally-harsh, misogynistic and apparently never-ending campaign against Twilight & Anti-fans of all ages. The controversy of Fifty Shades of Grey has more to do with the affect Stephenie Meyer’s amateur writing had on older women like Erika. So yeah, this blog has four main complaints:

1) I abhor how Twilight’s young (and young-at-heart) fans have been treated by Hollywood since long before Kristen Stewart’s super-hyped ‘cheating’ scandal with Rupert Sanders - especially the ‘clueless’ fans who are/were probably the most embedded in their obsessions; and who have had the hardest time dealing with tabloid rumor-lies surrounding the celebrities they are infamously overly-obsessed with – one misogynistic stunt after another; and anything to stir up more imaginary hate for money. Do you know that suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death for 15 - 24 year olds in the United States?!!!!!

Hollywood, you made young girls CRY and you didn't write ONE DAMN GOOD SONG LYRIC to do it! I am not impressed…

2) I have a serious problem with all the anti-twilight haters who have somehow turned into the WORST anti-fans or superfans of Kristen Stewart and/or Robert Pattinson. Did you know that these are the majority of know-it-alls who are so mean in online comments; and did you also know that the majority of these ‘fans’ are older ‘robsessed’ women? (Keep reading, I’ve got all kinds of stuff to back that up – or you can go do the research yourself. It’s fun! ;)

3) Fifty Shades of Grey originally being Twilight-inspired fanfiction; and then being published with as much professional negligence – and even more harmful on society in dynamic, hardcore ways. (Oh yeah, I will talk about how Twilight inspired 50 Shades; along with what’s wrong with it, and how – specifically – is it harmful.)

4) Stephenie Meyer and her ‘professional’ publishers and production franchise caused all this chaos in so many ridiculous and preventable ways. The Twilight Saga was an accident/mistake from page one. No other professional book publisher would ever have published a book with that much dysfunction intact for young adult audiences, especially.

No other author has ever accidentally-caused so much deep-seeded hate, division and misogyny around the world or among their own fanbase. The list of Stephenie Meyer’s offenses is sickening; and much moreso now ‘after the fact’ since she has always refused to acknowledge or take responsibility for them.

This blog has been active since November 2011 with thousands of Twilight & Anti-Twilight Fan visits (scroll down for side counter); along with, no-doubt - Stephenie Meyer's 'professional' cronies and Hollywood journalists who are researching Twilight for this year’s anniversary. (Searches on the ‘pros and cons of twilight over twelve years’ are probably journalist-type searches. No, I’m not stupid. ;)

But, this isn’t really a newsworthy blog for any of you ‘journalists’ to reference, is it? I mean, it’s not like any of you are about to admit that you have done anything wrong. Ever. You were/are all well within your ‘rights’ to mistreat young girls as blatantly and misogynistically as you have. EVERY Hollywood ‘journalist’ is responsible for NOT PUTTING A STOP TO IT!!! (Yeah, bold, all-caps like this is a rude shout, you JERKS!!!)

At this point, it is practically impossible that Stephenie Meyer or the rest of the important, ‘big-people’ of the world don’t know about this blog. Oh yeah, I have made efforts to contact her every way possible for years. It is highly-likely that she knows and is continuing to ignore this issue. And as long as everyone else keeps quiet, she will get away with it - again.

Where are you, Stephenie Meyer? The Twilight Saga is ten years old this year; and we've been calling you out for a long time. It is time to answer for the harmful & willful amateur mistakes that you forced on us all in ignorance - with the help of your publisher & production franchise: both of which should have known better.

Did you know that Steph’s publisher didn’t want to publish Breaking Dawn? Did you know that New Moon & Eclipse were not supposed to be in between the 1st & last books? Do you ‘get’ that she didn’t mean to cause so many of her OLDER fans to see Edward Cullen the way they came to see him as Christian Grey? Do you understand that these are the reasons why the world has always & STILL bullies Twilight Fans, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson because of her amateur mistakes?

Yeah, it is beyond time for you to apologize to the world and your Twilight Movie Fans who propelled your ‘saga’ into such a phenomenal orbit, Stephenie Meyer. If we had known from the beginning what so many of your book fans knew (along with ALL the bad things that would happen because of it); and realized just how ignorantly and smugly you have managed your profound literary failure – the success of Twilight would have ended in 2008.



Update 7/15 – If you happen to appreciate anything about this blog, I would appreciate your help in getting my depleted bank account back up to par. I have poured way too much time, effort and money into it; and I turned down a huge pile of money to publish it (scroll down after the click to read). If you can help me out even with a buck, my little family and I would really appreciate it. (This post is actually a really nice ‘ending-blog’ post because I thought it was done – but the bullying attacks against Twilight Fans are neverending, aren’t they?)

Update 7/17/15 – And to the trickle of biotches who have started to write me hate emails informing me that I don’t deserve a dime for telling the truth about Steph’s pretty fairytale and exposing it for what it really is… You and those of your ilk can just STOP. I already know how sick-in-the-head you are; and we all know whose fault it is. Pour money into Stephenie Meyer & EL James’ harmful crap that has caused so much misogyny, division and hate around the globe – doing THAT is Okay. This is why the world is the way it is – because people’s priorities concerning the Human spirit are seriously perverted. It is people like Steph, Erika and their enablers who have contributed to these twisted ideals in so many ways across history.

If you really do not feel like I deserve anything for all the hard – not to mention, incredibly frustrating – work that I have put into this blog; here is a challenge… Read through my Twilight: ReVamped & ReWolfed fanfiction corrective rewrite & storyline critique and then decide whether or not *I* deserve a few pennies out of this messy pie. I do almost as much sticking up for Stephenie Meyer, as I do at ripping her writing to shreds. It’s called, ‘being honest’.

No, EL James isn’t the only one who wrote a good Twilight fanfiction alternative – except you can expect mine to not be XXX, ha! I rewrote The Twilight Saga by sticking to the storyline; but I made it believable – really, that was possible. In fact, now that Twilight can be shown as a believable story - it is no longer necessary for Anti-Twilight peeps to continue bullying Twilight Fans just because SM didn’t ‘get’ why she needed to make it believable.

Careful… I have had some really good compliments on it from both literary experts and Twilight (and especially Anti-Twilight) Fans. It is only a summary, with just the first chapter written as complete to give it the foundation that it should have had (takes 2-3 hours for me to read through it all).

Here is one positive review (sorry, have to scroll down after the click to read): “I have so very many things to say where to start..... Firstly I love your blog and the rewrite, I felt like you have given the characters depth and a new life. If I were a judge I would totally give you custody!...)

Between these blogs and the rewrite I have probably written as much as either Steph or Erika have; and I certainly put a lot more thought and creativity (not to mention, knowledge) into it. Just insert either author’s purple prose where applicable while you’re reading, since I didn’t write any – and it is darn near perfect, ha! ;)

Yeah, you be the judge – please.

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Blog Introduction

"To further paraphrase the raw feeling of Miss Lewis’s international smash hit: This series has cut open my friend and her fellow so-called Twi-hards. They keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love. Now that’s it’s over, they don’t need Kleenex. They need tourniquets." Source

The question of ‘what’s wrong with Twilight obsessions’ is moot, now – we’ve all seen the damaging affects Stephenie Meyer’s bad writing has had on our world in dynamic ways for a whole decade, now. Why grown, adult women continue to brush this stuff off can only be explained by their own obsessions with either The Twilight Saga, 50 Shades of Grey – and often, both.

In any case, the argument that people’s minds are untouchable via books, movies and/or tabloid drama is also ridiculously moot. It is why tabloids and ‘marketing’ in particular are such big business. People’s minds are easily manipulated – easy, easy, easy. No one is immune to it. No more playing dumb…

Sick-in-the-head older women had absolutely no right to hijack the pretty fairytale of young girls; and they should damn well care when their daughters are being bullied by the world, incessantly (see end of intro).

Why does The Twilight Saga have so many anti-fans? Why are there hardly any male fans? How did Twilight’s infamous obsessions become over-obsessions? Why are so many older women more obsessed than younger ones? Why did the fandom fracture into several various fanbases that fight among themselves? How did we get 50 Shades of Grey out of all this commotion?

I recorded four wildly-ranting videos (this one is my favorite – calling SM out, ha!) over three years ago at the height of my own very unwanted Twilight over-obsession (It’s not like you can unwatch or unread something – or reclaim wasted time). At that point, I was really mad about ‘how I was obsessed’ with this pretty fairytale; and I was mad that Stephenie Meyer had ‘accidentally’ done this to so many other people before me - and didn’t correct any of the dysfunction in her books before she made them into movies.

I actually say this in the second video before I had even heard of 50 Shades of Grey... “It sounds to me like Stephenie has some sort of BDSM fetish, but I don’t even sort of want to think about that right now.” (Video #12 is where you will hear me say this.)

And yet, somehow 50 Shades of Grey exists as Twilight Fanfiction; and is yet another dysfunctional worldwide ‘phenomenon’?! Do you have any idea how disturbing that is? Not only is it wrong, but it makes my skin crawl…

Do you ‘get’ that Stephenie Meyer didn’t MEAN for her character of Edward Cullen to be seen the way that so many older women, like EL James, came to see him? Only an amateur author who was not held to standards by her ‘professional’ publishers and editors could have accomplished that.

Do we really want to go through more YEARS of the world ripping these 50 Shades of Grey movies and their fans to shreds (as it has done - and continues to do - to Twilight Fans)? As many people have pointed out, that kind of behavior has been MORE misogynistic than the movie, itself. If you want the hate to end, then start treating these books & movies like professionals should have a long time ago.

Really, we women CAN be professionals; and both of these series’ could have been really AMAZING stories if the women who developed these storylines into movies had allowed for that kind of treatment. I mean, if this kind of harmful storytelling is what ‘feminists’ bring into the world – why should we pay women any better than men; and WHY should we ‘give them the helm’ in directing movies?

Anti-Twilight Fans could SEE what Stephenie Meyer didn’t MEAN to write; and I’m SURE Erika didn’t MEAN to write this book this way, either. From her point of view and many others – it’s perfect; just like Twilight was for Steph.

But, when you publish a book and produce it into a movie; you are doing it for a world audience and no longer for yourself. You have too many YOUNG (and older naïve!) fans mixed into your fanbase; and your fanbase is HUGE. Please, Erika - FIX the things about the story that are not right so that fans can SEE the difference between the abuse that is currently happening on the screen and how people SHOULD be treated in such compromising & vulnerable situations. If that sounds confusing, I explain it to you thoroughly, here. Its not like any of this is rocket science.

I’m left wondering yet again... WHERE are the ‘professionals’? I think a couple of them just left!

Btw, there is a petition against misogynistic abuse at the end of this intro; but it isn’t for either Stephenie Meyer or EL James. This blog IS written by a feminist who actually gives a sh*t beyond the silly sexual fantasies of desperate older women.

Here is how to contact EL James via email
- Let her know that you would like her to
reconsider how the next two movies come out.
Teaching & learning is better than burying these mistakes.




This is a reply to a question that shoots off from the reviews of Twilight on Amazon. There are over six thousand replies to this question, most of them similar to this one. Read more if you need more convincing.

For SO MANY Twihards - past & present - Twilight obsessions are NOT 'normal' obsessions.

"I feel just crazy. My poor family!! I can't even count how many times I've read the first two. And yes, what little of Midnight Sun is available, I've read twice. At first, I thought reading it from Edward's perspective would finally settle my obsession - because I realized the second (or was it third?!) time I read Twilight that I was re-reading just trying to figure out what Edward was thinking. But then of course, Midnight Sun isn't finished - so I'm still left wondering. And then of course I'm hoping she'll do the same thing for the other titles. I'm reading New Moon today - and keep wondering what's going on in Edward's mind."

When the first Twilight movie was being made in 2008; the last book, Breaking Dawn had not been released, yet. Because of this, no one knew at that time that Stephenie Meyer was going to bomb her pretty fairytale into the ground until it was published a few months before the release of the first film.

Extreme chaos & debate surrounded Steph and The Twilight Saga at that time for the exact same reasons that surrounds 50 Shades of Grey - but somehow, she got through it (see side links)...

If 'Midnight Sun' had not been 'accidentally' leaked just prior to the first movie being rushed; AND Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson had not BOTH nailed their parts in that first movie - Twilight would have been history.

Stephenie Meyer could have written any 'ol ending for her infamously overly-obsessed fans (and really, that seems like what she did); and they would have lapped it up like honey.

The entire world has done nothing but treat Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson AND their emotionally-invested fans like sh*t, since - and the infighting among Twilight's divided and HATEFUL fanbases is ongoing.

Despite all this, 'feminists' have embraced the latest and greatest dysfunctional character, Christian Grey/Edward Cullen/Prince Charming...

No respect for you at all, Stephenie Meyer. You could at least 'take the high road' and apologize to the world and your fans - especially your movie fans who propelled your 'saga' into the phenomenon that it became; and who have had to deal with the majority of world bullying and neverending tabloid drama specifically written to make money off of your diehard fans and your beloved Leads.

You wanna hear something funny?
Every single person who has read through at least part of this blog; and has sent me feedback through various online means - and I do mean every single one; admits to agreeing with most of it. The majority of you hate me because of it – while so many others of you are simply too afraid to stick your necks out.

Is it any wonder why I hate Stephenie Meyer for causing all this unnecessary and incredibly misogynistic hate & division? There is nothing female-positive or male-positive in either of these series. If you don’t like the truths that I am exposing in here – just think of me as maybe being similar to historic feminist, Katharine Bushnell, who took on the misogynistic ideals among her religion.

I’m calling out the misogynistic ideals of the religion of TwiGrey, ha! And just like the men of Katharine’s day whom she was calling out and exposing – you despise me and call me crazy.

Fun! While this is not the way that I would have chosen to spend so much time over the past three plus years - now that this blog is done - I’m really glad that I took the time to do it; and I wouldn’t change a thing. If you are in here, then it has served it’s purpose of making you less cozy in your varied hate – if you’re a hater. And if you’re an uniformed person seeking answers – you’re in the place to become informed. (Eventually this intro will be much shorter – scroll down to the link table for easy access to info at your fingertips. ;)

Whatever Happened to the ‘Anti-Twilight Army’
from 2008-2009; and WHY don’t you see their support on this blog?

Stephenie Meyer Knows Why Gossip Rags & Paparazzi won’t leave
Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart (or her beloved fans) alone.

That’s why she deserves this blog; and it is why it will not be deleted until either
Steph, her professional cronies and/or her fans do something to fix the situation:

‘They took all of my heat, which I feel bad about,' Stephenie
tells The Times Magazine. ‘If they had the choice, I've no idea if

they'd even do Twilight again. I just don't know.
I think this has all come at a heavy price.'

Ya think, Steph?!!

Robert Pattinson’s Career-Hindering Rover Smear
Based on the Whole Wide World’s Twilight Saga Hate

This movie FLOPPED amidst RARE (for him) GLOWING reviews from movie critics at
film festivals who compared his performance to Leo DiCaprio’s Oscar-Nominated
performance in ‘What’s Eating Gilbert Grape’. Yeah, it’s a HUGE deal!!
This movie would not have tanked without way too much ‘help’ from
tabloid manipulation of Twilight’s huge numbers of anti-fans.

Why the Public Shaming of Kristen Stewart MATTERS to Young Girls
by Nico Lang on Huffington Post

Here’s a splash from Nico’s article: "Trampire:" Why the Public Slut Shaming of Kristen Stewart Matters for Young Women “I don't care if Kristen Stewart and Rupert Sanders did it in a car, in a bar, in a house or with a mouse. But while I might not be concerned for K-Stew, I am concerned for my younger stepsister who idolizes and worships her....” And this is an update from Nico on Salon: Racist 'Twilight' fans won't stop harassing Robert Pattinson's girlfriend, FKA Twigs

Yeah, Twilight’s still-many hateful and overly-obsessed
fans managed to p*ss all over the debut of the proclaimed

Celebrity Rookie of the Year 2014

Aren’t we sweet?





Update 4/24/15 – Many of the people who are coming through here at the moment are heartbroken and/or emotionally-flailing fans of Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Please world, be extra-patient and gentle with these girls – young and older – who are having such a hard time with the possibility of the engagement of Robert Pattinson and FKA Twigs. Remember: the feelings of obsessed fans are real even if their obsessions are not until they drift away. There are still MANY fans like this out there. PLEASE stop bashing mercilessly at them, tabloids. You have absolutely no right to continue making money off of their pain in such obviously wicked ways!! Your job is to ENTERTAIN, not harm Human hearts in ways that lowers the quality of life for Kris, Rob, Tahliah AND their fans.

If you’re a fan looking for ‘the truth about robsten’ – here you go. Stay out of tabloid stories that are specifically written to hurt you and your friends. This is how I know so much about ‘robsten’ – I am a movie fanlady who had been researching Twilight when the misogynistic ‘cheating’ scandal came down; and it was sort of a side effect of doing all this research.

You HKN Haven baby conspiracy theory girls (this post debunks these ludicrous theories - as of July 2015, this has been the most popular post since December 2014) who are EXTRA-mad at Robert now for ‘leaving his wife & baby’ are simply wrong about that plot line. Kristen has NEVER had a baby and they have never been married!! Stop blaming them both for things they never did; or you will always hate them and each other.

Also, this post is called “Will Kristen Stewart & Robert Pattinson ever reunite?” Sometimes, you just need a semi-believable scenario in order to move on. Tabloid Lies and fan infighting just breeds more internal static (and more money for the rags, that’s why they continue to harass Rob & Kris; cuz you’re profitable when they have the emotions of their fans in flux.) Hang in there, girls – boycott all tabloids, find a friend to hang out with and/or another good diversion for a while until you feel fine. The static will go and peace will come eventually, I promise! ;)

Stephenie Meyer Website Quote

Stephenie Meyer Website Quote
Actually, I would like to know what both of those rejections said... It's been ten years. When can the truth about The Twilight Saga finally come out without venomous fanbase infighting? 50 Shades of Grey isn't enough reason to acknowledge it?


Update 3/16/15 – Wow, I guess Twilight & Anti-Twilight fans are not ready to talk about the very real, obvious and many literary mistakes that brought us this sparkling, hate-stirring fairytale. Since I’ve put this latest ‘incriminating’ photo of Steph’s saga from her website up – you’re leaving even faster than after I put the semi-innocent ‘cheating’ photo of Kristen up here. In fact, this blog is practically stalled. That’s Okay, it’s not like anything is going to change. Maybe you’ll be ready for it on Twilight’s Twentieth Anniversary.

As a Twilight Movie Fan who has every right to be very angry about this stuff ‘after the fact’ – you should all be grateful that I’m not screaming for Stephenie Meyer’s head on a platter, ha! All *I* want is for the paparazzi & tabloids to be dealt with because they’ve been nothing but misogynistic jerks to our girls for long enough. I will be happy to delete this ugly blog if we can manage to unite to do that. I actually have no more of an interest in acknowledging Stephenie Meyer than she does with me. The indifference is very mutual.

I’m just using this TRUE stuff about both her & EL James’ books to get the world’s attention.

If you ladies must embrace 50 Shades of Grey, fine… But STOP claiming it to be feminist, ‘just like the guys’ stuff; and that consent makes everything Okay – because those things are simply not true. Romantic rape is abuse – as much as it would have been for Edward to ‘seduce’ Bella with his supernatural vampire abilities. Be careful out there, girls… It can be really hard to distinguish between a real, non-abusive, natural dominant / alpha-male; and a dangerous, sexually-aggressive jerk like Mr. Grey. There IS a difference between them. They don’t have to ‘be into’ BDSM – and they’re usually a lot more fun and certainly safer than Master G. ;)

Update 3/14/15 - Since I put this photo up of Kristen Stewart (bottom now) – the majority of you are leaving (after I started complaining about all the hate emails). Why? It has made this intro even longer and interrupted the 50 Shades of Grey stuff. If your hate for Kristen Stewart is that volatile after all this time – especially where her semi-innocence may be concerned - you should probably be talking to a therapist about your bitter obsession. Ask yourself why you want her to be guilty of this most cardinal sin (for women). Come on, NONE of you actually KNOW Kristen Stewart beyond tabloid manipulation.

Why Do People Hate Bella Swan and Kristen Stewart?
Believe it or not, this is a very easy question to answer…

August 2012, one month after the ‘cheating’ scandal started; and yes, I still receive emails like this. “…Thank you for writing that wonderful blog.. it was heaven sent. …Please someone tell him. He just texted me and said he told my mom..and for me to get some help..and bye..please tell him..everyone is doing this and its killing me..but everybody acts like they don’t know what im talking about..I think I may have never needed anything so bad in all of my life than for somebody to tell him..I know they are trying to drive me crazy..and its starting to work… thanks again, was truly a blessing I needed to read..very much so :)”

This is the post she was talking about - incidentally, the very first post where I connected 50 Shades with Twilight. If you’re wondering WHY a fan of ‘robsten’ would say such nice things to me – again, she isn’t the only one – it’s because I did a lot of ‘forgiving’ and ‘explaining’ about what was ACTUALLY going on at the beginning of the ‘cheating’ scandal. Yeah, I was one of those strange people who was feeling really sorry for Twilight’s hurting fangirlz.

So many of you are not allowing yourself to ‘get’ this; but this is what this blog is about at the heart of it: Julianne Moore, recent interview excerpt - “Women are fabulous. I like our camaraderie, our similarities, how we collaborate,” Moore says, adding that her daughter helped put that into perspective. “When my daughter was born, I looked at her in the bassinet and I said, ‘You’re one of us.’ I’m going to cry if I think about it too much. I had this little girl and was like, ‘Yup. You’re one of us."

Young girls are ‘one of us’ – whether they are famous or fans of someone who is famous; and it is our duty to protect them. ‘Hate’ shouldn’t even come into play…

Why are the obsessions of young girls important? Because their feelings are real even if the obsessions are not – until they drift away. Young girls need their fairytale ‘escapes’ MUCH MORE than older ones do because they have limited ways to cope with life’s crap (the latest, torturous lies coming out of Hollywood’s gossip rags). If you’ve never been forced to endure public high school in the US (or anywhere, probably); or been abused as a child (unfortunately, still a common occurrence) - then of course you can’t possibly relate.

This is the most confusing thing for the majority of you:
How can I be ‘anti-twilight’ – and yet be sticking up for young and
young-at-heart Twilight Fans? Again, just think of me as maybe being
a bit like Rosalie: I don’t have a problem with anyone’s choice of ‘groom’.
I have a problem with grown women being allowed to toy with people’s minds;
and all the worldwide hate & bullying that has developed because of it.
The reason why most of you won’t actually read through this intro
(like you claim to) is because of either Stephenie Meyer or EL James.
That doesn’t exactly give me a reason to not be angry with them.

Believe it or not, these deep divisions shouldn’t even exist.
And if these books had been
edited & published responsibly, they wouldn’t.
Yeah, this is the crux of what makes me angry. ;)

How many times have you seen fans of all ages defend
The Twilight Saga, Stephenie Meyer or their favorite characters?
No one should have had to defend anyone.
We ALL should have all received a good story to begin with.

The Twilight Saga was forgivable because it was supposedly written for young girls who weren’t supposed to know any better about real-make-believe Vampires. But, I see absolutely no reason to excuse Fifty Shades of Grey. I actually find the nerve of someone publishing ‘fanfiction’ books like this after all the twilight controversy to be appalling; but I’m willing to bet that EL James was ‘too into’ writing out her obsessive Edward & Bella fantasy to be paying much attention to it. I’ve never read 50 Shades of Grey and I have absolutely no desire to. But, I believe every fan who claims it to be toe-curling and mind-boggling. I also believed you all for a while about Twilight too – until I figured out (too late) otherwise, LoL! (That’s actually why I won’t read (or research) 50 Shades of Grey any more than I already have - because I don’t want to develop a ‘hate’ for it. ;)

But no… It’s just so wrong, and it only proves ‘what was wrong with Twilight’. Frankly, there are a few lessons in here that we should probably all be re-learning. Including me – if you think any of this has been fun - not.

Anti Twilight Hate

Anti Twilight Hate

Blog Conclusion: Fanfiction writing is a completely different type of writing than professionally published manuscripts – that’s why it has it’s own special place in the world; and that’s where both The Twilight Saga and 50 Shades of Grey should have stayed. (OR, they also could have been taken seriously and ‘treated’ by professionals in such a way for them to have been much less harmful on young – and moreso older - blossoming minds).

Writing is a time-honored profession with rules that are in place for a reason. When those rules are not understood by amateur writers; and go unedited & uncorrected by ‘professional’ publishers – things like Twilight & 50 Shades of Grey happen. Hopefully, with what the world & publishing companies have learned from these glaring literary mistakes – they won’t happen again. (That’s why they’ve never happened like this before, not because Stephenie Meyer or EL James were brilliant writers. No other ‘professional’ publisher would ever have published any of these seven books with such obvious & profound negligence intact.)

~ Catherine, Blog Author – auntmisfitchick@gmail.com
I’ve been researching & writing about Stephenie Meyer’s amateur literary mistakes for a lot longer than it took for her to write them out. I’m sure I know more about her books, characters, movies & storyline than she does. I’m ‘one of you’, ladies… And only someone who used to love Twilight can tell you what is actually wrong with it. And probably only someone who is familiar with both Vampires & BDSM can tell you what is wrong with 50 Shades of Grey, also. For one, knowledge is power – not consent.

If you absolutely must help perpetuate porn now; please at least check out female porn directors, first.

Forget about the porn. I know it isn’t easy to see your favorite authors ‘corrected’ like this; but it isn’t like any of this stuff isn’t true. Fictional worlds DO have rules & logic within them – without those things, the ‘made-up world’ wouldn’t be believable; and that is the main issue with both of these series’, they aren’t believable – which makes them accidentally-erroneous, insulting and offensive (and in the case of Fifty Shades, also dangerous).

That’s why people are ‘concerned’ about them and their fans get made fun of.

Here’s a splash from the 50 Shades of Grey commentary post (I just moved this to make this intro shorter) Maybe this will help you push through this information because it is important. And, I have many other good reasons beyond this to be upset:

If you’re a longtime vampire fangirl who knows better - watching Christian Grey up on the screen… We’re basically watching EL James’ version of ‘what she wanted Edward to be doing to Bella’ in Twilight. But, NOT EVEN Edward would have been acting like this toward Bella – UNLESS he was being written as a ‘real’ make-believe EVIL Vampire (which, he wasn’t – intentionally ignorantly – but if you know even just a little bit more about them than Stephenie did – VOILἏ, ’50 Shades of Grey’. Have you ever heard a Twilight-hater refer to it as a story about ‘romantic rape’? Yeah, there IS a connection.)

Romantic rape is abuse – and is essentially the Human equivalent of a real-make-believe Vampire ‘seduction’. Vampires are well-known to be able to look you in the eye and turn your brain into a seductive state of intoxication – leaving their prey practically defenseless and begging to be bitten. Except most Vampires wouldn’t usually go for sex, with modern exceptions; because part of their original mystical lore is that ‘The Feed’ IS SEX for them.

(This link goes to a hysterical YouTube video that makes that point easy to see. From Buffy the Vampire Slayer - Spike, the Vampire is looking for Buffy to kill her - of course. But, he has just escaped from a government facility that he didn't realize put a computer chip in his head that sends searing pain into his brain when he tries to feed off of a living thing - in this case, the sweet and recently-heartbroken Willow, Buffy's BFF and college roommate. Most of you could probably use a humor-break right about now - here it is. This video also demonstrates how ‘rough’ pre-twilight vamp fangirlz viewed Vampires. ;)

POIGNANT POINT: There are other reasons why this movie is harmful; but this is the main reason why 50 Shades of Grey is SO hurtful to survivors of abuse – you see MANY articles & comments out in Internetland dissing this movie that have been written by survivors of abuse; and this is why: TRIGGERS. It reminds us of things we really REALLY do NOT want to remember… And we really (really!) do not want anyone else to get hurt like that. The majority of protestors (not all) are NOT just ‘trying to be mean’.

The Twilight Saga wasn’t ‘quite’ as harmful – aside from the affect the shallow characters & storyline had on fans like Erika and so many other older ladies (yeah, like me, too): Because Edward Cullen supposedly LOVES Bella Swan… Which is why (no doubt) Stephenie went to so many great lengths to bury her (probably much more tame) sexual fantasy with all that extra writing in her LONG four books – so that (most) people couldn’t see all the sex hidden between the lines. BUT, isn’t Edward Cullen kind of ‘dominant’ and intoxicating in some very seductive ways?

Incidentally, this is also the reason why The Twilight Saga ended up with so many ‘Anti-Fans’ – because it ‘turned people off’ in various ways (you didn’t need to be a ‘survivor’ to be offended by it); while for others who were often more clueless about real make-believe vampires (or who decided to embrace it despite their knowledge), it ‘turned them overly-on’, ha!

Update 2/15/15 – Nah, I haven’t always been a big meanie… This ‘Anti-Twilight’ MOVIE fan blog took a two year hiatus, called a TRUCE, and became a ‘Hollywood Tabloid & Paparazzi Reform’ blog before swinging back around to the original cause of ALL the world’s collective TwiHATE, Stephenie Meyer – in January of this year. I even offered to delete everything I’ve ever written, recorded or published about this subject if Twilight & Anti-Twilight Fans (along with the rest of the world) could unite. Turns out that isn’t possible. Here’s a nostalgic reminder if you’re interested – SCROLL DOWN past the slideshow to read after the click:

How Did this Blog Change to
Tabloid & Paparazzi Reform

- Yeah, I have some really good reasons beyond
Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson and their Fans
(Although I’m pretty sure they are enough reason at this point.)

For the longest time, there were VERY FEW young girls that came through here compared to older girls – probably one out of every half a dozen emails were from girls. Most young fangirls were still ‘into’ the actual story of Twilight. In fact, most of them were/are still doing things like creating Edward & Bella digital photo montages. (Which is of course exactly what they should be doing.)

HOWEVER, since the stories of Robert Pattinson dating FKA Twigs (scroll down to read comments on stuff like this) started coming out around September – young girls are starting to come out of the woodwork A LOT more because the majority of them are Edward & Bella ‘robsten’ fans who have been ‘keeping the faith’ about them still being together ALL THIS TIME. Many younger fans and older non-vamp fans are SERIOUS ‘robsten’ fans; because they are the ones most-likely to have this pretty fairytale in their heads EXACTLY HOW STEPHENIE MEYER WROTE IT. Edward & Bella FOREVER! ;)

Many of these fans have basically been making up their own ‘tabloid-type’ stories about Kris and Rob; and ignoring all the other rumors up until now - because they thought they were sure about ‘the truth about them’. (HKN Haven baby conspiracy blog is one example of this - believe it or not, this has been the MOST popular keyword search into here, and THE most popular post since December. If you know an obsessed Twilight Fan of ANY age – check in with them.) Now that ‘reality’ has come into play with Robert dating someone else… There are more heartbroken young girls coming through here; AND you are seeing more of their comments & opinions out in Internetland – whereas before, the majority of comments beneath online articles were from older fangirls.

Twilight probably used to have only ONE fanbase, but it fractured into a few different kinds – VERY unusual for ANY kind of ‘fandom’ to do that. Have you ever heard of any other fanbases doing that? Not only that, but fans are disjointed from the world, itself - by gender & age (age because many older fangirls see twilight 50 Shades of Grey differently than young girls do). These things are just more examples of ‘bad’ things that came out of Twilight.

Btw, it is UTTERLY AMAZING how the tabloids & paparazzi have seriously died down around Rob & Kris just since 50 Shades of Grey came out. One can only guess why they are SUDDENLY almost gone. Not to worry, I capture LOTS of stuff. This post is from December and contains TWELVE of the MOST awful bs that we had to put up with, to date. Tabloids were trying to give their fans Twelve Days of a Merry Christmas, I guess. Here’s a short list:

INTENTIONALLY-damaging articles posted on Hollywood Life JUST in December:

Robert Pattinson's Family Loves FKA Twigs More Than Kristen Stewart

Kristen Stewart: Robert Pattinson Punishing Her With FKA Twigs ...

Robert Pattinson & FKA Twigs: He's Having The Best Sex Of His Life

Kristen Stewart Thinks FKA Twigs Will 'Grow Tired' Of Robert Pattinson

Robert Pattinson: Why Kristen Stewart Isn't Sexy To Him Anymore

Here’s a ‘fan’ complaining about the lack of reporting about them, now:

Rossi Posted at 4:36 PM on February 15, 2015
Where ARE the paps??!! All the media swirl of late has been around Fifty Shades of Grey and Robs friend who plays Grey. OR, Alicia and Kristan going for yet another coffee! Doesn’t anyone find it just a MIGHT interesting that there has been NO gossip or pics about Rob and FKA Twigs for quite awhile now?. I know she’s down under…I mean Down Under in Aussie land. However, not a peep have we heard from either of them about each other. Is this a cooling off period for them??? Let’s face it, way too much NOTHING happening out there for something not to be in the “missing” category…

The MAIN REASON why younger girls are coming in here is because THEY are doing searches about their beloved celebrities and what’s going on with them. Most of them are pretty mad about all the tabloid crap like me. And since I’m writing about them up here, I can tell you that EVERY SINGLE YOUNG FAN who has written to me - and MANY older non-hater ones, also (you wouldn’t believe how many older hater-hags have accused me of having a crush on Kristen Stewart, ha!) - would LOVE for the world to hear this message:


I haven’t received NEARLY as much hate mail OR surprise about the information on this blog from younger fans as older ones. Young girls WANT to know EVERYTHING about their favorite fairytales; and have already done all this research I have in here in their own ways – and made their own decisions surrounding it. Older women are a lot more clueless about it, especially movie fans; simply because we weren’t as interested in the details – and who has time, ha!

Many of them have been arguing on one side or the other for years – along with the know-it-all older girls. Yeah, there are lots of Twilight AND Anti-Twilight fans BOTH among young girls. They FIGHT about this mess among themselves as much as grown-ups do – it is NORMAL to most of them by now. Talk about a cultural disfigurement. It’s been amazing to me… I’d say they are divided about in half (whereas older girls have heavy concentrations of Anti-Twilight fans especially in the ‘robsessed’ portion of the fanbase).

Would you like to experience a recent wild ride through
a tabloid debate among Kristen and Rob’s colorful fanbases
Brace Yourself, ha!

This is even better… Collected fan & anti-fan comments during
Robert Pattinson’s birthday last year (and OMG, it’s coming up again
in May! Kristen’s is in April, but who really cares about HER, right?!)
Robert Pattinson’s 2014 Birthday Wishes from Fans & Anti-Fans

What are Heartbroken Fans still saying since the ‘cheating’ scandal?
This post rarely gets hit. I guess peeps could care less about
still heartbroken fans after all this time.

What are Mean Fans still saying?
This post gets LOTS of hits and then you LEAVE.
There are two ‘death threats’ I have captured in here
- one for Kristen and one more recent for FKA Twigs.
They have BOTH had MANY others.
Do you think tabloids should be able to leave harsh
things like death threats within audience comments?

What did Kristen Stewart do that was SO BAD – that Bella didn’t do to Edward with Jacob? As I recall… Edward forgave her back then, too. ;)

If you are among fellow Twihards - YEAH, you are MORE than HAPPY to acknowledge your Twilight addiction. It's a bonding thing! But, let someone point out how bad and/or damaging Twilight is... THEN, it's "NO WAY, Twilight is HARMLESS, it's JUST a STORY that doesn't hurt ANYBODY!" (Kristen, Robert and their MILLIONS of FANS are NOT people?!) Kristen did NOT have sex with Rupert Sanders; and NEITHER were those photos 'faked'. Tabloids twisted the story (and those images) to make so many of you believe one or the other of these TWO things because anything less than a 'cheating' scandal OR a silly conspiracy theory would have been OFF LIMITS as a way for the misogynistic smears to continue.

As long as there is NO REAL BLOOD gushing out of a flesh wound, they are all FINE, right?!!

Mean, judgmental people have not been making things easy for their fans… But Rob & Kris DIDN’T split because she ‘cheated’. Kristen referred to the situation as a ‘momentary indiscretion’ when it happened; and Robert reunited with her SOON afterwards because that’s ALL it was.

Kristen apologized to absolutely everyone TWICE – the first time was in her original public apology when she added the words, “and everyone this has affected”. NO ONE manipulated Robert into going back to her. He went back because HE was as MUCH as in LOVE with her as she was with HIM; and they were BOTH in PAIN.

Everything that has happened to them with this situation has been normal – with the exception of the tabloids twisting the story so misogynistically to have made so many obsessed fans SICKER than they already were.

Neither Kristen nor Robert are blameless as much as any fan would like them to be – and neither have they deserved all the hate.

They split for REAL mid-May 2013 after the tabloids & paparazzi continued to hound them incessantly – remember the ‘trial separation’ smear, ‘Valetgate’ and the ‘Rob cheating with Katy Perry’ rumors? (Yeah, those have been proven – all the way around – as tabloid rumors-lies.)

THAT is why they split – NOT because Kristen cheated on Robert, or because he was cheating with Katy. Until fans start realizing the truth about what tabloids did to twist these stories; and STOP trying to blame them both for things they NEVER DID – you’ll always hate them and each other.

The Truth About ‘Robsten’
Cheating Scandal & Fake Photos DEBUNKED Here

We girls of the 70’s, 80’s and 90’s never had to go through ANYTHING like the cruel & intentional emotionally-harsh obsession-bashing that has been going on with Hollywood’s tabloids & Twilight fans for years – and in the extreme for the past 2.5 years. Gossip rags have been INTENTIONALLY assaulting fans, NOT ‘entertaining’ them – for money.

Yeah, I have a HUGE problem with that.

Who am I?

I’m an Anti-Twilight MOVIE (not book) fanlady over 40 who RESEARCHED how Twilight was written & published because I KNOW better and have higher standards. It is not even SORT of a mystery to people like me - how EL James came up with 50 Shades of Grey from Twilight. Keep reading, I’ll explain it to you in DETAIL. ;)

I’m a long-standing Sci-Fi, Mystical, Superhero Fangirl - so dammit, I apparently knew more about vampires than your average ‘Buffy’ fan did. I’m NOT apologizing for that.

I’m also a survivor of ALL KINDS of childhood abuse. None of you have any idea how offensive these STUPID books are to people like me. Don’t tell me that I don’t know what I’m talking about in here – OR that I’m crazy. This is the MOST SANE I’ve ever been in my life, and it hasn’t been ANY fun AT ALL.

Reminder: The ‘Cheating’ Scandal Happened on July 24th, 2012

Published on Jan 3, 2015 – Tabloid Video - Kristen Stewart:
"Get the F*CK OUT of my face!" Faces free lesbian dating site rumors!

- Always check out the audience comments when viewing articles & videos if they are available.

This is the ‘description’ of this video: How did kristen stewart become an actress? An autograph hound asks Kristen Stewart to sign a Twilight photo showing her and ex-boyfriend Robert Pattinson together, and Kristen curses the guy out with an f-bomb. It's been years since Rob had any Kristen Stewart teeth marks. Some reports online have said recently that Kristen met her girlfriend on a free online lesbian dating site, and Kristen has been an unspoken supporter of the gay and lesbian community. Do you think lesbian meeting sites are a great place to meet online singles? (Video Courtesy: Splash News AKA Paparazzi *ssholes)

I had a recent petition here for Stephenie Meyer since she is the original
cause of all this mess; but apparently, she is completely
untouchable as far as everyone is concerned. And,
I’ve had too many of her fans request that I remove it.
So, I am… I guess I’ll just continue to despise & resent her
for her frustrating and irresponsible silence.
Apparently, she doesn’t think she owes her Twilight Movie Fans – who
launched her greedy franchise into such a phenomenal orbit - a damn thing.

Here’s the old petition for the tabloids if you want to do
something to help Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson and their fans.
And again, someone else is welcome to rewrite and/or host it.
Sign the petition for Hollywood tabloid & paparazzi reform
If nothing else, peek in here and check out our new theme song.
Some Fangirl should make us a video out of it, ha! ;)


Update 2/12/15 - Dang, I am frustrated with ‘crazy’ accusations… I’ve almost published this blog into a ‘real book’ THREE different times over the past year and a half. I’ve been offered thousands of dollars to publish it by a major publishing house – not a ‘fanfiction’ outlet; and I’ve been told that it is brilliant deductive reasoning by literary EXPERTS (one, was especially impressed with my critique and summary correction of the Twilight storyline. Actually, many people have been impressed with it including Twilight Fans.)… No, that doesn’t mean that this blog is currently at a writing standard to be professionally published. Previous publishing discussions included obtaining interviews with professional literary experts along with child psychologists and ‘obsession experts’ to bring a lot more validation to the information on this blog.

This is a BLOG – it’s not a published work. I had good reasons for NOT publishing it. I simply don’t want to hurt anymore ACTUAL Twilight Fans than I have to in getting this message out – especially young ones. (For instance, I don’t troll fansites for the same reason – usually, but especially not with 50 Shades. Tabloid stories where mostly grown-ups hang out is where you see my rants.) Here is the original post where I talk about not publishing this stuff months ago AND WHY. (scroll down after the click)

February 21st 2015
Kristen Stewart Makes History
the first American actress to be nominated for a French César award
in 30 years; and also the first American actress EVER to win.

…And this is how the world treats her – and we allow her to be treated.
(see image below)

Even if Kristen Stewart ‘really’ cheated on Robert Pattinson… The misogynistic bullying by paparazzi & tabloids should have been long over by now. Just like Tiger Woods & Arnold Schwarzenegger‘s real & multiple adulterous offenses combined have been. Kristen Stewart is semi-respected in every country except her own. The basic Human Rights of ‘Life, Liberty & Pursuit of Happiness’ should apply as much to her as to any other person on this planet.

Also, Robert Pattinson didn’t create the offensive sparkling vampire of Edward Cullen… The world should really get over that and give him credit for putting up with so much hate from so many Anti-Twilight fans for so long because of it; as well as for putting up with overly-possessive & obsessive semi-crazy fangirlz of all ages who have overly-imagined loving him for so long. How many men out there would have survived that without coming out the other side unjaded? Some men can hardly handle one girlfriend/wife for very long, ha! ;)

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart both deserve a huge break by their fans and the world.
All celebrities need these reforms and have for a long time – this isn’t a new debate.
It is time for adults to start caring about the constant assaults on the hearts and
minds of people beyond the physical condition of their bodies. Suicide has been
an increasing and concerning factor; and the job of the entertainment industry
is to ENTERTAIN. Free Speech was never meant to protect lies for profits.

Kristen Stewart Carrying Papers

Kristen Stewart Carrying Papers
Example of world bullying: Some fans have been looking for these lost images for a while, and one has finally been found on 3/9/15. If this doesn't shift your opinion about what the tabloids have been doing to emotionally-invested young Twilight fans, I don't know what will. This image of Kristen Stewart carrying papers was missed by many fans because the tabloid removed it early - hoping that fans would forget about it so they (and other tabloids) could twist a full 'cheating scandal' - as opposed to a 'momentary indiscretion' on her. It has worked like a charm for longer than Tiger Woods & Arnold Schwarzenegger's real & multiple adulterous offenses, combined. This image was captured from an early fan-made video. But, you will not find this image among the originally-published lot, anymore - along with at least one other one similar to this that was removed. Btw, if you click on the image – it will take you to a post that talks about these missing images with a TwiMom; along with another email exchange if you're interested in my emails, ha!


This is a Summary List of Links for this Blog – More Links Galore Within Them!!

Most Popular Keyword Searches
into this blog

The TwiSmears

The Twilight Saga

Stephenie Meyer

The Fanbases

Why the ‘Cheating’ Scandal Started; Telling on My Big TwiSisters (Aug 2012, 1 mo. After)

Nothing but LOVE for
our Twilight Character
Actors & Actresses

An Anti-Twilight Fan's Dream Talk with SM

Twihards - We Movie Fans
Deserve a Discussion

July 2012 'Cheating' Scandal

What actually happened
to Kristen Stewart with Rupert Sanders that day? Why did robsten really break up?

Why is Twilight so Addictive? How Did it Inspire 50 Shades of Grey?

Questions for Steph:
Twilight, a Post-Mortem

Defining Twilight's
Various Fanbases
…In which I actually
stick up for
Stephenie Meyer, OMG!

Additional & Extended Scandal Timelines

- WAY more info than you want; but some peeps just can’t get enough. ;)

What's Wrong with Twilight Chapter
One: First Sight

1st Original Blog Post
- How Can You See
Steph's Sexual Fantasy
Glaring thru Twilight

Letter to My Little Twilight Sisters – Why I Keep Picking on Twilight.

Pre-Cheating Scandal Smears that have been going on since 2008.

Twilight: Breaking Dawn Parts 1 & 2 Movie Reviews
- easiest to see literary dysfunctions

Ramifications of Wrong Writing in the Case of Twilight Addictions
Whatever happened to the Anti-Twilight Army?

Letter to My Big Twilight Sisters – Are You SURE Breaking Dawn is Okay?

Fan & Anti-Fan Hate-Debate; December 2014
- Fans reveal how harmful tabloids have been via online article comments.

Official Reasoning for
Every Little Thing
Wrong with Twilight

The Most Common Keyword Searches into these blogs
HELP with a Twilight Obsession; Immortalicum & ‘Demonic Messages’?!

Why are so Many OLDER
Fans so sick

What Have Heartbroken Fans Been Saying
Since the Scandal in July 2012?

What EXACTLY is Wrong with Stephenie Meyer’s Sparkling ‘Vampires’?
- Written BEFORE I watched her movies.

What a JOKE!
Twilight is Coming to Facebook Because ‘the voices of women are important to Steph’!!

What Does Robert Pattinson Think About His OLDER ‘robsessed’ Twihard & Anti-Twilight ‘Fans’, BOTH?

What Have Mean Fans Been Saying Since the Scandal in July 2012?

YouTube Video Collection
'What's Wrong with The Twilight Saga'

Final Judgment of
The Twilight Saga
Or, Why I HATE (omg!) SM and Her ARMY of Desperate Housewives – et all TwiJerks & Anti-TwiJerks Over 30.

Help Easing a Stubborn
Twilight and/or Robsten

Robert Pattinson's Post-Scandal Career Hindering Rover Smear
- Based on the Wide World’s Twilight Hate

Fanfiction Corrective Rewrite Summary (2+ hours) Edward Cullen
Explains His Pretty
Vampire Sparkles
believable ending
and MORE!

Let’s Talk About ‘Midnight Sun’
and how Steph Could POSSIBLY Make Her Huge Literary Failure up to The World.

Who am I?


What's Wrong with EL James Writing in 50 Shades of Grey?

If you're in a hurry, scroll down for highlights such as ‘Why is 50 Shades dangerous’ and ‘negligent publishing explained’, etc. This is a little long because I didn't realize a lot of this stuff until the movie started coming out with feedback, and things started happening...

Grey Area: How ‘Fifty Shades’ Dominated the Market
New York Review of Books Magazine

Where ’50 Shades’ Came From – Includes an ORIGINAL
Graphic Captured from the TwiFanFiction Novella.

Update 3/28/15 - OMG, someday I’m going to publish every ugly email I’ve ever received from MEAN anti-fans of Twilight and/or superfans of 50 Shades of Grey. That is who the majority of people coming into this blog seem to be - simultaneously. Yeah, even though I am an anti-twilight fan, myself; I have always received far more hate from my fellow anti-believers than I have from Twihards. I couldn’t figure out why for the longest time - it is because anti-fans (along with Twihards) ended up getting 50 Shades of Grey out of it.

Most Twilight fans acknowledge the mistakes of their amateur author because they have to - whereas anti-Twilight fans LOVE giving me a detailed lecture about what’s wrong with it; and then accusing me of being crazy for connecting it with 50 Shades of Grey… “So, shut up, Catherine!” *face palm*

Not gonna happen… Telling on my big Twilight sisters (and Anti-Twilight sisters): Why was The Twilight Saga unusually addictive - especially for older women, why are there so many bullying haters - and how did it inspire 50 Shades of Grey?

It truly bewilders me, how so many of you who are such adamant haters of Twilight can still condone Fifty Shades at the same time; OR be so complacent in your arguments to excuse both of these series’ – largely because so many of you are also amateur authors hoping to ‘make it’ someday, too. (You would not believe how many emails I receive from other amateur women writers trying to get me to brush this stuff off – despite agreeing with me. You’re a bunch of Justin Beibers hoping for your accidental spot in the spotlight like Steph & Erika got – IF someone like me doesn’t rock the boat.)

Honestly, I’m almost as sick of you wishy-washy “I know, but...” fans as I am of haters. Do you have any idea how frustrating it is to have so MANY people agree with you and hate you for it en masse?!! How the hell did you all get so twisted?

Oh yeah, Stephenie Meyer…

I KNOW that Ana leaves Christian at the end of the first book/movie because she supposedly ‘finally sees’ that he’s an abusive *ss… BUT, she comes back for two more books, doesn’t she. If she had stayed away from him, moved on with her life and maybe found her nice-guy ‘Jacob’; that would have been an appropriate (semi-healthy) ending for the story.

Also… Did you know that Anne Rice, who wrote the “Interview with the Vampire’ series also wrote ‘The Sleeping Beauty Trilogy’ - a series about BDSM? Vampires have always inspired that kind of ‘dark fantasy’. There is too much evidence surrounding The Twilight Saga; and you can’t hide those kinds of whopping literary mistakes from people who can read (scroll down for the side links). Every ‘fan’ who insists on calling me crazy without actually reading though this can just go f*ck yourselves. Your denials do not make this blog irrelevant.

Why Exactly does Fifty Shades Send the Wrong Message About Abusive Relationships?

It has been really disturbing to see both Stars of 50 Shades of Grey come out and directly claim that this movie isn’t about abuse, and that Ana isn’t a victim. (And it didn’t take long for me to accept Dakota Johnson as one of my favorite celebrities. I’ve been a fan of her mother’s for a long time; and she is turning out to be similar and just as loveable – sweet & quirky smushed together. ;)

There are three easy explanations as to why this movie is about abuse – whether fans can see it and/or admit it; and no matter how many various ways people can find to brush it off:

If a man had written this storyline (and they have in so many different, far more obvious & offensive ways – often without a happy ending); we women would ‘know better’… but because it came from one of our own, it is easy to hypocritically and/or ignorantly embrace it. We trust our own gender more, right? Women wouldn’t write something harmful for other women – on purpose (of course not).

ONE: Christian inflicting pain on Ana is only indirectly the abuse that protesters are talking about… What makes their relationship not Okay is the fact that Ana is NOT INTO Christian’s pain-inflicting kink; but (of course) she enjoys the parts that stroke her inner goddess and the sex. That is what you call ‘romantic rape’ and it IS coercive and manipulative at any age, really. Not all abuse is violent; in fact, non-violent, 'subtle' abuse is often just as bad as violence.

For a perspective that you might be able to ‘see’ better, a common example of romantic rape would be… an older (and sometimes married) man showering a young girl (often a subordinate) with compliments & gifts to hopefully-eventually get into her panties. (Actually, they will do that with a girl of any age that they are attracted to if they think they can get away with it.)

Not all men enjoy having sex with a woman against her will for a lot of reasons – not the least of which, she won’t TELL. 
But, if he can manipulate her into the impression that SHE helped nurture their naughty rendezvous; and even wanted them from the beginning – no girl is going to say anything except perhaps to her closest confidants, especially young girls who often view themselves as being at fault.(Why do you think we have ‘statutory rape’ laws in place? They are meant to keep adults who should know better from seducing sexually-naïve, curious and impressionable minors.)

I really don’t mean to make it sound like all men are evil… Certainly women can be manipulative and abusive, as well. People of all genders, age brackets and sexual orientations need to learn how to recognize inappropriate behavior that is coming towards them; and guard their hearts & bodies at an early age without becoming so uptight that you can’t ever trust anyone nor have any sexual fun.

Yeah, things can get tricky and fall into a ‘grey’ area – especially where ‘consent’ is concerned. The Human mind is far more easily swayed than we like to admit – that’s why marketing & tabloids are such big business. And learning how to be a discerning fool isn’t easy because we’re also dealing with peer/family pressure and our own internal ‘demons’ and desires at the same time.

I mean, sometimes we women actually DO ‘want it from the beginning’, right? ;)

TWO: But, 50 Shades of Grey is about rough, hardcore sex; and was written by a woman and approved by millions of women around the world. With the way it was written and is being produced into movies, it can give men – especially young ones – the wrong idea about what women want out of sex. For instance, did you hear about the College Rape Case that was just thrown out? The boy tried to blame the situation on this movie. It apparently worked. Since the girl consented at the beginning of the encounter – but changed her mind later after he started taking things too far – the judge threw the case out.

For all anyone knew, he could have been giving her exactly what she wanted, right? We certainly are not going to throw away a young man’s life by sending him to prison over a potential miscommunication between him and some girl who probably changed her mind in the middle of getting what she had consented to do from the beginning, are we?
There have been other cases similar to this around the world. How many more men may misunderstand this movie and/or use it as an excuse to abuse over time?

THREE: But beyond that and even MORESO… Christian (aside from not being a very believable Dom – at all; I'll talk more about this below) admits that he is into this kind of lifestyle because he was emotionally disturbed as a child. Later, Ana apparently ‘cures’ him by somehow saving his soul from the grasp of it’s own dark evil.

This is the dangerous part… That RARELY happens in real life; and in fact, some women are killed trying to save their sick Mr. Grey’s(and sometimes those guys die in the process of women defending themselves).

“According to Sir Bamm, a member of the board of directors of the Safe, Sane and Consensual Network of North Carolina, a scene between respectful partners is a controlled environment. Abuse is an out-of-control situation in which the dominant partner's desires are inflicted on the submissive partner against her will.”

2/24/15 - I’ve been writing this blog for over three years, now; and in all that time I’ve received some pretty mean hate mail and online comments from angry Twilight Fans, and I expect that. But I have always thought it weird that I have received more hate from older Anti-Twilight Fans – and now that makes sense; because anti-twilight ladies ended up getting 50 Shades of Grey out of it.

…So, shut up, Catherine! FSoG must have been a uniting force among older Twilight & Anti-Twilight women, LoL! 

But now I’m also hearing from Twilight-haters who are so incensed at the word ‘Twilight’; that they can’t be anything but ‘put off’ and mean to anyone who mentions it. 50 Shades of Grey is its own animal and a much easier topic to misogynistically spout-off about - especially for men – because its ‘just’ sex (and something they erroneously view themselves to be experts at).

So now, while many haters are mad about this disturbing ‘abusive mommy porn’ (as if you have any business to be talking about it like that – is anyone aware of ‘reality porn’ that sets up real young girls to be violated? Consent is everything.); we’re not going to remember much less talk about Twilight’s offensive influence on 50 Shades of Grey and all the other bad things those sparkling vampire books managed to inflict upon this planet.

When this blog started gaining momentum; I was SO SURE that it would have support from the rest of the world – especially anti-twilight fans & twilight-haters because of all the past links I found about Twilight: all the amateur writing, shallow characters, shallow storyline and unusual over-obsessions of fans, etc.

But, I literally receive hate from EVERY direction, now… If I could tell the whole wide world off, I would. I have never regretted watching a movie so badly in my entire life. Nor have I ever had so many people AGREE with me about something and hate me for it.

This blog has ALWAYS been an advocate since November 2011 for YOUNG and young-at-heart Twilight Fans AND Anti-Twilight Fans (past & present) – many of whom are clueless; HAVE NO VOICE; and have been bullied by the world & their own fansisters relentlessly for a whole decade, now – because of an ‘accidental’ sexually-charged superstory that was written by an amateur author; then somehow negligently edited & published into the world by a ‘professional’ publisher.

50 Shades of Woops!

Go ahead and hate me for that.

Thank you Stephenie Meyer for causing so much division and HATE in this world – as if we didn’t already have enough. And DOUBLE-thanks for all the hate that has always come at ME for informing the world and telling the truth about your harmful books that you have never accepted responsibility for.

Just because the world is no longer interested in the harmful effects of YOUR books, anymore – like it once was for the SAME EXACT REASONS (scrolls down to the side links); and you’ve got clueless women of the world BRAINWASHED with your bs by now – doesn’t make this blog irrelevant. I hope you and your morally-superior, amateur author eyes see this blog someday, Stephenie Meyer.

When women make a big, cultural stink – we don’t just make an obvious, offensive one that makes a few conservatives mad. We break all the safety rules and INSIST that it’s BRILLIANT in the face of valid, logical and overwhelming evidence and worldwide opposition. 

Update 2/23/15 - And so it begins… Sex assault charges tied to '50 Shades of Grey' movie. It’s not just about WOMEN ‘being safe’. Men & boys NEED to understand this stuff, too!! Women are not just ‘into having hardcore sex’. Do you think he might have used this movie as an excuse to be abusive? If so, how many more men around the world might do that? Maybe he just misunderstood the girl, huh? Just so you know, Stephenie Meyer… I will be blaming YOU for every one of these violent assaults, not EL James. THIS is what happens when people don’t understand the concepts surrounding ‘what they are writing about’ with respect to ‘how the world works’.

This is why this lesson is TAUGHT in schools; and it is also one of the most recommended pieces of advice among good writers to aspiring writers: *drum roll* Write what you know about and/or do the research.

Let’s all continue to feel bad for Stephenie Meyer because I’m SO MEAN to her in here. That amateur author has done absolutely nothing to deserve my respect – least of all take responsibility for her literary failure so many years ago, or NOW. Ya darn right I’m mean to her. She deserves this damn blog. I only wish I could SHOVE it in her FACE and MAKE her read it! 

Clarification on why this movie is NOT a ‘feminist breakthrough’: “People are saying that this franchise does right by women because it was written and directed by women and produced for women, but that only makes it worse,” she said. “That means that romanticized abuse is so internalized that it can be mass-marketed to women, and only demonstrates female-produced content as of lower quality, which isn’t the truth.” (Usually.) Source (JEEZ, how did it get that way, guys? We’ve watched enough of your ‘outright’ fantasies, haven’t we? And thanks so much for all the sh*tty, ‘women like to fantasize about being raped’ comments out there.)

There are AT LEAST as many women as men who have very good reasons for abhorring this movie. For one, THEIR stuff is obviously & blatantly sexual or violent or whatever. It’s an EASY choice whether or not you want to join them for the show. This movie HIDES the reality of what it is really about in plain sight - behind a fake veil of BDSM. 

These books are no more about the lifestyle or practice of BDSM than Twilight was about Vampires; and neither series is about love, either… 50 Shades of Grey is virtual proof of how warped the obsessions of so many OLDER Twilight & ANTI-Twilight fans were so many years ago (and still). 

I mean, MAYBE 50 Shades of Grey is Okay because YOU are all grown-ups. But, Twilight wasn’t written for grown-ups like it SHOULD have been – or not published at all. For instance, one of the favorite alternative names for Edward for OLDER – mostly ‘robsessed’ fans - is ‘Bedward’; and MANY of them are very VERY sad/mad that Robert Pattinson didn’t accept the part of Christian Grey... And fans who don’t see Edward Cullen this way (at least, in the extreme) – mostly young girls – have been tormented about things like that, for years… and it continues in ridiculously misogynistic ways around the world, daily. 

BOTH The Twilight Saga & 50 Shades of Grey are deceptively ALL about ‘rough HARDCORE sex’ – and that is all either one of them was ever about. Stephenie Meyer may have written about that subject by accident (the sexual fantasy she left glaring throughout Twilight is/was probably much more tame than the ones she caused some of her fans); but EL James obviously ‘got it’ from the beginning – just like SO MANY of Steph’s OLDER ‘fans’- and wrote out exactly what Twilight was about.

‘Vampireism’ and ‘BDSM’ were just the masks that were used to create each respective series’ storylines so that grown women could write out their NAUGHTY sexual fantasies and have them be accepted & excused by the world. If that were not true, they would both have been written a whole HELL of lot better - and probably about the actual subjects they were supposed to be about! 

NEITHER of these books have a believable storyline; neither one of them would have received higher than a ‘D’ on the first chapter in a college course; and neither one of them were edited OR treated in a remotely professional way by a ‘professional’ book publisher. WHY & HOW did either of these two HARMFUL book series’ get published (or win ANY awards?!?) - much less get made into movies?!

Really… English teacher/professor challenge… PLEASE grade just the first chapter of each of the first published books in these series. 

THANK YOU 50 Shades of Grey for NOT ONLY causing so many sexually-naive
conservative women to get hung up on this harmful crap; but for further confusing the

topics of things like gay-marriage and sex in general for them
– as if they didn’t already have enough BS to contend with!!
You POLARIZED conservatives and made divisions DEEPER!!!

The crime is the fruit of the theology:
Christian responses to 50 Shades of Grey

- an excellent article on the role conservative
religions have played in the misogynistic treatment
of women since long before 50 Shades was written.

Don’t listen to all these stupid sermons that are about to come out, Ladies…
I’d rather you go watch the movie and allow your brain to expand; but be
smart about it and realize that things aren’t ‘quite right’ up on that screen.
If anyone makes you feel guilty about it, IGNORE them.

I mean, the damn thing is HERE… You might as well learn & grow from it.
Isn’t that what we do with mistakes – especially big ones?

How Could EL James save the next two 50 Shades
movies without making the world more sick?

Update 2/20/15 - I keep reading that EL James wants more control over the script for the sequels, of course – cuz ‘we all just don’t understand’ I would guess, LoL! We get it… You really should let someone who at least semi-knows what they are talking about FIX this story since you have the opportunity to do that. PLEASE don’t pull a ‘Stephenie Meyer’ and try to force the rest of this story on us like this in ignorance, I’m BEGGING you!!!

Doms & Dommes are not Vampires for fans to scream ‘its HARMLESS fiction’. This time, the books are erroneously based on REAL Human-type people IN A DANGEROUS WAY– not evil mystical-fantasy monsters that have been made prettier than Jesus, Jim Jones and Zeus combined. (Btw, snuggling can be as big a part of BDSM as pain can.)

Believe me, I’ve spelled it out for you (scroll down to the 2/16 – 2/18 updates, below)This story COULD (potentially) be a really GREAT story IF you ‘do it right’ by going back and figuring out what’s wrong with it, first. The same thing could have happened with Twilight if Steph hadn’t have been such an arrogant amateur author flipping off her own fanbase and the world when all the controversy about her books was in the limelight. 

You could make a different choice. 

And DON’T be silly and go out and get a bunch of men to try fixing it like they did to ‘make Twilight seem valid’… KEEP your female director who probably ‘gets it’ better than anyone. You’re worried about ‘the romance’ getting messed up – that’s why you’re there to make sure it doesn’t. I mean, of course The Red Room SHOULD have been red to start out with; and that last line SHOULD have been ‘Stop’ instead of ‘Red’, etc.

But, you’re not just telling this story to a bunch of older ladies who are just discovering this HARDCORE stuff, anymore. Sure the story might turn out a little (or a lot) different - honestly, I would be surprised if it wasn’t a completely different story by the time you’re done. But, I’m willing to bet that EVEN YOU will like it better after you understand ‘what’s wrong with it’.

Btw, Sam… If she’s pushing for MORE SEX, give it to her. Don’t be afraid to show us women like that IN THE RIGHT WAY. We deserve our own raunchy fairytale that doesn’t treat women like sh*t. THAT would be a ‘feminist breakthrough’ movie.

Update: I love emails because peeps often alert me to ‘how things are being perceived’ up here. For instance, now I’m being accused of being an obsessed fan of this series who is simply ‘wanting her own fantasy’ to be fulfilled – NOT. You couldn’t get me to read these books unless you put a gun to my head or something, LoL! I don’t need them to know what’s wrong with them – a good ‘flip through’ is all that was necessary. It’s just that I think it would be a really good learning experience for everyone.

Also, feel free to use the ‘Comments from the World’ post in the intro instead of sending me emails. ;)

What Makes 50 Shades of Grey So Dangerous?

Update 2/18/15 - THIS is the ‘scary’ thing about this movie/books being about BDSM for people who are not familiar with it… If you decide to go out there and FIND a ‘dom’ to play with you; you have to be VERY CAREFUL – especially on the internet – to be able to distinguish between a REAL DOM and just another sexually-aggressive jerk. The line between the two can be ’50 Shades of Grey’. ;)

And I HOPE to God none of you have gotten hurt like that, yet. (Not everyone who has been reading these books are grown, responsible, married women who are OUT of the danger zone and supposedly know everything.) 

For Instance – One result of bringing this book into the mainstream:
100 teens stampede Florida movie theater that
denied them entry to 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
It’s not like we can really put the genie back in the bottle now, can we?
This is why *I* think ‘teaching’ would be better than burying this mistake. 

One of the big differences between them would be… The most ‘harsh’ punishment a Dom/Domme can give out to (most) subs is to IGNORE them – essentially, they ‘withhold their power’ which can drive a sub to BEGGING, LoL! They wouldn’t ‘rape’ them or anything like that AS A RESPONSE when they get really (personally) mad at them (of course, a ‘good’ sub doesn’t instigate that – on purpose. ;) – but basically, they don’t do that because ABUSE isn’t the right way to respond; AND because that ‘might’ be a reward for a sub (maybe they are acting the way they are towards you in order to GET that kind of a reaction out of you) - NOT the desired effect, at all. (Yes, ‘rape’ or whatever can certainly be a huge part of your consensual roleplay.) 

Can you see the difference, now? 

Btw, there IS a difference between a ‘playful’ sub and one that is ‘p*ssing off a dom/domme’. If you ‘mildly’ make them mad, they might ‘teach you a lesson’ – but, don’t expect it to necessarily be the ‘one you want’, LoL! I’m just saying, the only ‘more extreme’ punishment beyond ‘ignoring’ would be to banish the sub.

There are some generous Doms & Dommes out there who have BDSM for beginner’s websites that go further into these differences. One of the TOP PRIORITIES of ‘real’ BDSM peeps is that SAFETY is the number one concern for everyone – surrounding a lot of things like, ‘how to use a crop’ and how to tie knots so as not to hurt your sub – too much. ;) 

There are MANY men out there who intentionally ‘pose’ as doms to reel sexual targets in (and they were doing that long before 50 Shades came along) – DO BE CAREFUL, but DO also have fun if you want to! Probably the ‘safest’ place to start learning about BDSM is your local club – they almost always have beginner’s classes; and they know how to take care of newbies. They are actually VERY protective of each other. ;)

In fact, if you happen to be visiting Seattle to check out Mr. Grey’s apartment – you should check out Seattle’s club – endearingly and formerly known as ‘The Wet Spot’ (yeah, I’m actually from Seattle; and I happen to be a Switch, ha!). Say Hello to Alena (I think she is the president) if you go – she is quite possibly one of the most compassionate and coolest people on the planet: The Center for Sex Positive Culture. 

Please, I implore you… Do your research first, girls.

Explain the ‘Rare, Professionally-Negligent Publishing’ Thing
with Twilight in Relation to 50 Shades of Grey, better…

The kicker is the maddening thing... If the professional editors of these books had been doing their jobs with the very first Twilight novel; it wouldn't have mattered so much when Stephenie Meyer got the ending so wrong in Breaking Dawn - because her fans wouldn't have been so 'deeply' obsessed with it BEFORE she got to that point:

Twilight & Anti-Twilight obsessions (not every fan is obsessed) are unusually-personal & potent (and sometimes too-intimate) for EACH person – uniquely, regardless of age - because of the too-shallow character writing in the very first few chapters; that made Bella Swan – especially – extremely easy for some readers & watchers to ‘slip into’ her character (instead of Stephenie); and/OR become too personally-infatuated with the character of Edward Cullen.

To put it another way… Fans who were reading these books, especially; had to ‘help’ Stephenie Meyer write her story using their own personalities and internal substance to flesh-out Bella’s character. This is how/why things became so PERSONAL for each person. Additionally, fans who read the books AFTER watching the movies (or didn’t read the books at all) used their own idealized perceptions of the actress & actor who play Bella & Edward to ‘flesh out’ the shallow characters (some moreso than others). This is how so many fans got a ‘little too hung-up’ on Robert Pattinson and/or Kristen Stewart.

Because of this, there are LOTS of Twilight & Anti-Twilight obsession variations. For instance, did you know that there is an entire section of Twilight’s pre-movie book fanbase that completely rejected the movies a long time ago? AND the majority of older ‘robsessed’ fans don’t consider themselves to be Twilight fans – AT ALL; but rather, Anti-Twilight ‘protectors’ of Robert Pattinson from his ‘crazy’ Twilight fanbase. Incidentally, this is also where the majority of Kristen Stewart haters & ‘anti-fans’ come from. (I’ve been told this so many times, its so sickening.) 

Here’s a normal comment on one of Robert Pattinson’s fansites: “You're not dealing with Rob's fandom, you're dealing with the fandom of his ex… The crackpot comments are coming from fans of Twilight/Edward/Bella…” February 25, 2015 at 11:23 PM (This is actually an untrue statement. There are MANY heartbroken ‘just robsessed’ fans – most of them seem to be older and/or also Twilight Fans (because the fanbases often bleed into each other). This ‘fan’ sounds younger. Most young anti-twilight fans can be smug, mean know-it-alls just like the judgmental older ladies. But, they could do a better job of debunking this storyline than even I can, I’m sure. (In fact, they have – I certainly didn’t come up with the majority of this stuff without them, LoL! re: side links.) 

On top of that; every fan’s different variation of familiarity with Vampires colored their story – again, for each person – based on their own previous knowledge of these mystical creatures OR LACK THEROF. It’s the ‘lack therof’ fans of both of these two series who are so quick to pass these books off. This update is how 50 Shades was ‘probably’ born. Despite popular opinion, I ‘don’t think I know everything’. I didn’t realize this until I started to really think about it and piece (yet more) stuff together on the day it was written.

So MUCH of this stuff has been realized ‘as it has been happening’. You have NO IDEA how creepy that has been to me, at times – LoL! The number of coincidences that led me to this place is amazing. What am I saying? Nothing other than someone ELSE should have been able to figure ALL this stuff out LONG BEFORE *I* came along; and they DAMN WELL SHOULD have done something about it back then. 

Update 2/16/15 - You know, I have some experience with BDSM (no, I’m not a ‘pro’ – but I am a ‘switch’); and I’ve been trying to put my finger on exactly what’s wrong with this movie and I think I’ve finally figured it out. Subspace… this is why the storyline is so unbelievable… Being able to ‘call’ Ana on her various forms of sexual arousal during the contract scene is NOT it – that could be the seductive ‘line’ from any guy. That ISN’T how a ‘dom’ would seduce you, Ladies… Christian isn’t believable as a ‘dom’ (in more ways than this); and Ana isn’t believable as a ‘sub’ (she obviously doesn’t like it) – they should both just drop the pretense and HAVE AT IT, LoL! Kink is NOT confined to the BDSM realm – really. You don’t need a damn contract or even a crop or handcuffs to get naughty; and pain and bondage can be part of sex without ‘BDSM’ being in the picture.

And dang, here’s more… THIS is probably one of the reasons why EL James wrote this book this way. Because in Twilight, Edward Cullen is a ‘Vampire’ with supernatural abilities that includes things like being EXTRA STRONG and able to read your mind and sense your feelings, etc… If you’re going to write a parallel story to that, the character of Christian Grey HAS to have that same kind of niche, and a ‘rich dom’ might work if you’re trying to bring the story into the Human realm. I’d guess that EL James had an ‘inkling’ of what ‘subspace’ actually was – just like Stephenie Meyer had an ‘inkling’ about the ‘intoxicating’ effects of vampires.

If you’re a longtime vampire fangirl who knows better - watching Christian Grey up on the screen… We’re basically watching EL James’ version of ‘what she wanted Edward to be doing to Bella’ in Twilight. But, NOT EVEN Edward would have been acting like this toward Bella – UNLESS he was being written as a ‘real’ make-believe EVIL Vampire (which, he wasn’t – intentionally ignorantly – but if you know even just a little bit more about them than Stephenie did – VOILἏ, ’50 Shades of Grey’.)

Romantic rape is abuse – and is essentially the Human equivalent of a real-make-believe Vampire ‘seduction’. Vampires are well-known to be able to look you in the eye and turn your brain into a seductive state of intoxication – leaving their prey practically defenseless and begging to be bitten. (Except most Vampires wouldn’t usually go for sex, with modern exceptions; because part of their original mystical lore is that ‘The Feed’ IS SEX for them. (This link goes to a hysterical YouTube video that makes that point easy to see. From Buffy the Vampire Slayer - Spike, the Vampire is looking for Buffy to kill her - of course - but he's just escaped from a government facility that he didn't realize put a computer chip in his head that sends searing pain into his brain when he tries to feed off of a living thing. In this case, the sweet and recently-heartbroken Willow - Buffy's BFF and college roommate. Most of you could probably use a humor-break right about now - here it is. ;)

POIGNANT POINT: There are other reasons why this movie is harmful; but this is the main reason why 50 Shades of Grey is SO hurtful to survivors of abuse – you see MANY articles & comments out in Internetland dissing this movie that have been written by survivors of abuse; and this is why: TRIGGERS. It reminds us of things we really REALLY do NOT want to remember… And we really (really!) do not want anyone else to get hurt like that. The majority of protestors (not all) are NOT just ‘trying to be mean’.

The Twilight Saga wasn’t ‘quite’ as harmful – aside from the affect the shallow characters & storyline had on fans like Erika and so many other older ladies (yeah, like me, too - if you didn't watch the link to the video I left above about 'the feed being sex for vampires'; it also does a good job of showing how 'rough' real-make-believe vampires were perceived by us older girls before watching or reading Twilight): Because Edward Cullen supposedly LOVES Bella Swan… Which is why (no doubt) Stephenie went to so many great lengths to bury her (probably much more tame) sexual fantasy with all that extra writing in her LONG four books – so that (most) people couldn’t see all the sex hidden between the lines. BUT, isn’t Edward Cullen kind of ‘dominant’ and intoxicating in some very seductive ways? 

This is probably THE MAIN REASON why EL James’ movie & books have done so well… She brought the unobtainable, sparking vampire loverboy character in Twilight into our HUMAN realm; and now we can see how that ‘type’ of an intoxicating character can REALLY be available to us girls, ha! (That is actually kind of depressing when you know that the reality is: there are FAR FEWER male Doms to sub ratios than there are female Domme to sub ratios. ;) 

As such, these books probably could have been amazing, too (just like Twilight could have); IF they had both been written about the actual subjects they were supposed to be about. Subspace… You’re COMPLETELY missing the point until you figure that out if you’re looking to ‘get into’ BDSM. But again, you DON’T need that part – and neither did these books. If you strip all that erroneous stuff away, you’re left with ‘what this book is really about’. 

The same DAMN thing happened with The Twilight Saga, that’s HOW this book got in EL James’ head – strip away Edward being an erroneous vampire, and what are you left with? Can you see now why so MANY bad things came out of the Twilight books? Is it any wonder why these two series AND THEIR FANS get made fun of? 

No, I don’t think anything like this has EVER happened, before – rare professionally-negligent publishing. (2yo article with a year of research behind it.)

It’s Okay to Think About the Story in a Different Way

This is funny… I finished this blog, and then the basic storylines of how *I* would have told this story started to ‘play out’ in my head (both series’ are the exact same storyline to me; although my version would have stuck with real make-believe vampires as told in here). But this is probably more how *my* twilight xxx parallel vamp-to-human story would have gone, LoL!

…If you need an idea to start thinking in a more appropriate direction about this story… Maybe you could re-create the ‘triangle’ in Twilight by adding another suitor for Ana who IS a good example of what a ‘dom’ is. Then make her have to choose between them like Steph did – I bet Ana ends up with the smarter choice this time. (Maybe not, some girls seem extra-attached to their first attractions. But, if you make those ‘first ones’ always the most important – then what about all the other good ones that come after it? Are they meaningless? You’re welcome Team Jacob! ;) 

There are many ways you could 're-interpret' this story, I'm sure - and, you managed to do it once already with Twilight. ;)

What you need to do is... Figure out the outline of 'what absolutely needs to be in this movie'. Then, find yourself a bdsm-type 'translator' to help you work out how to achieve those objectives bdsm style - simply put, LoL!

BTW, this poll used to contain 508 votes at one point in time. I'm not sure what has happened with losing votes - either Twihards who originally voted realized their votes were incriminating their beloved goddess/amateur author; OR all these accounts have simply been closed over the course of four months for whatever reasons. Doesn't matter, I've got the original 'important' numbers recorded within these posts.

Taking Our Temperature... How are YOU feeling, Twihards? Choose multiple answers as they apply.